I missed the bus this morning. Mom is to go to Doctor's Appointment. and If I go with her I can get a doctors note to return to school. and then I can see my love Justin. even though he wouldnt consider himselve it... I cut a few times last night... I was in deep depression and no justin to calm me down... I hope he dont find this because he said if I did cut.. he wouldnt talk to me no more. and thats the worst thing Imaginable to me.. I mean.. I would rather die a thousand deaths than never speak to him again... he's that important to me... I dont know... I just need to stop living all together... see you all when I get back here.... Okay.. Im back on... and Its 1:30... thirty minutes till school lets out.. and I dont know how long till justin gets home... all I know is that I wanted to go to school really bad to see him.. and my damn mother *glares evily through the wall to the demonic mother on the telephone*... my damn mother wouldnt take me..*tears*... but.. I read Scarlets diary.. it seems she made him laugh and smile... I cant even do that... Im a complete failure no matter what other's say.. I try to help... but I suck at it...I wish I was a better person... anyways.. getting off that subject because my eyes are literally beginning to water..... I HAVE A NEW SITE!!! *grins shortly*... its gonna hold meh stories.. and art and all that good stuff... I dont want to give you all the link yet because its still under construction... but... yeah... its soon to be done... Im still going to have my stories on my other sitD but... I also want it on my AngelFire site.... ...anywayz... back to depression... justin is going to kill me because I didnt go to school today *more tears*... he probably wont talk to me after that cutting thing... but... if he dont stop... then I dont see no reason why I should... even though he doesnt do it as often as I so happen to..... Im stupid for being me............ I dont know...... Im just going to go for now... maybe write later to tell you all how justin will yell at me and then never talk to me again... but If I dont... then you know the reason why..... yep!... too depressed to even get back to the computer....... GAWD THAT CREEPY WIND COMING IN MY WINDOW IS FREAKY!! especially when I JUST watched the movie Final Destination...... well... talk to you all later... I hope... buh bye.