Okay. so I gave up on colin.. It sucks.. but Im actually getting better at being less depressed on loosing people.. Its probably a bad thing. but at the moment Im taking it to my advantage. So yeah.. Our conversations for the past week have consisted of this. Matti:hey. Colin:Hey whats up? Matti:nothing really. Colin: hey.. Ive gotta "do homework/Eat dinner/go/get off the phone". Matti:..oh..okay Colin: I'll talk to you later. Matti:alright.. Colin:bye Matti:bye. yeah.. apparently he doesnt want to talk to me. Ive been talking to his friend philip for the weekend. he's been talking to me about him.. telling me I should move on and all sorts of shit.. I dunno.. I fucking hate having crushes. Ugh.. I dispise them. always. its not f air how I like someone and how they dont even care. What the fucks MY problem?.. I like people too easily.. way too easily.. -- This weekend was okay. I hung out with lexi and Matt thursday and friday. Matt spent the night from thursday all the way to Monday which made me less lonely which was good. I got to download this game called MapleStory. Thats awesome. Im addicted apparently from what matt says. He's just jealous cause Im better then him at the game XD.. so yeah.. Ive got like thirty minutes till class. so Ima go.. I'll write more tonight. -Matti --------------------------- Dominic wrote this.. "I need help....what do you call it when you like someone so much that it hurts? and I dont mean figuratively either...I literally get knots in my stomach....and they don't go away until I get to talk to this person... I don't want to call it love....neither of us are ready for that....but it's something...and it's something big... It kills me when I can't talk to "this person" ....oh....guess who just signed on?" I feel like crying.... -Matti