so yeah.. today.. was okay/boring/depressing. I got up at five:fourtyfive. and got ready by six thirty. walked all the way to school. well.. ran like.. One third of the way. I felt like running today. and then when I got to school laid there. stupidly until lexi gets there. I eat breakfast, and finally she starts straightening my hair and all this shit, and this one table of people who basically hate me start making fun of me, and im trying to ignore it. because I cant go up to a teacher and say "they're making fun of me" when I really dont have proof. All they were really doing was looking at me and smiling like somthing was going on but.. I dunno. So then I go to Second period. and Kim was moved and she's crying cause of it like usual. eventually she was sent to the office along with michelle because they're both acting up and wont just read a goddamn book. *song change, All American rejects- Cant take it* So Im reading and then finally we do this thing on Rosa Parks, and Martin Luther King And all that good stuff. I basically copy off of other people because I dont have it done, and Im all "BLEHH!!!!1" since I wasnt there for class the last time. AND THEEEN. Me and that boy adam, I think his name is? we joked a lil, being sarcastic to each other. After class He was being slow and I go.. "GAWWD YOU SLOW ASS MOOOOOVVE" so he stops and just stands there. and Im all "MOOVE YO FAT ASS YOU DONT OWN IT!!!1" and he replies "Yes I do!" and Im all "REALLLY? Thats PRetty Nifty! whatchoo name it?".. "Bob"..."BOB?? GAWD THATS SO OVERRATED"..and that was all. the more I talk to him the more my gay-dar goes off. so then. Lexi and I are sitting in robs class for fourth, and "reading" aka, Passing notes and being idiots like we always are, and I all. Lexi and I are sharing headphones. I got one and she's got the other and its connected at a cord. and yeah. *song change All American Rejects- Change your Mind* So I start Spazzing, I go to Move my hand, I knock the headphones out of her ear. Im trying to get things prepared and everything gets worse, Im dropping shit. And Loosing shit, and Hitting people and things. and Im all "URRGGHHH"..and The teachers just sitting there. Ignoring us.. and Im all WTF YOU HAD OF HEARD THAT!!1 EVERYONES WATCHING AND LAUGHING!. Finally I get settled and the class. was boring. We read a little more of The Giver. which is a fantastic book, but Ive already read it. -.- I have sooo much homework. So yeah.. And then during Lunch.. well.. we did the lunch thing, ate and then went to class. For Six, I sat with kenny again, we passed a few notes. I Wrote a Note to colin. and then scanned it online and sent it to him on myspace. I wont show you what it says, cause thats my business. Oh.. So I figured Kevin has a New person. Mark. So.. whatever.. I'll.. Just find someone else for me, although It wont happen. I can try. whatever. So after school Kenny invited me to the library with him cause he wants to see his ex girlfriend and all sorts of shit, and I have like a thousand fag hags running around the library, we get stopped by the police once and we're at the computers mostly. Fred gets taken off campus and we're all "WTF!!!!!!" so yeah.. that sucked major ass.. Then after that one girl told me her mom would give me a ride home if I went to their youth group with them. We had "okay" fun. the girls were all Over me. but I kept cracking jokes so I guess it was good. I pointed out Two to three gay guys. Girls: ARE YOU SUREE??? Matti: YEP Girls: OMG NO WAY THEY CANT BE! Matti: I Can Tell.. They are one girl: I ALWAYS SUSPECTED HIM!! Matti: Good Job. It was funny They want me to come back more often. so I guess I'll go every wednesday. although Im not christian, and hate most anyway. but I unno. its cool there. I was excepted.. although I was the only one with.. holes in my face. So yeah..Eventually I find out her mother couldnt get me a ride, I call Jeremy whos at the LGTBSU Meeting and so I start running there, its about.. half as long as it takes to walk to school. and by the time Im almost there, I call him and he's complaining about how they almost left me and they are out of it and all this and Im feeling like shit that I couldnt get there any sooner and that they were yelling at me. Then I talked to brandon who made me.. well. I cant say HE made me feel like shit.. but My feelings..and alot of other shit involving him and his girlfriend. and.. Me being.. an outcast to it.. made me feel like complete and utter depressive shit. We talked about colin, Colin wouldnt pick up his phone. he didnt talk either, his response was he had to call Brandon, but brandon left his phone at school. and I have an assumption colin knew that too.. I dunno.. Ive got to do a rewrite for Laurels class, do Robs homework, Dons homework, study for Caruchas class test two weeks away. and... yeah.. I never have homework, now I have too much.. Fuck.. -Matti