He's fucking Killing me. He's here in tallahassee but he refuses to see me, he says to wait till the weekend because he got mad at me kissing brandon a shitlong way back. and its pissing me off. Now we're supposively 101 percent okay. I beg to differ. I'm about a 60 percent okay with him because he keeps doing this to me. All I fucking want is him here.. to talk to him, to be with him.. to be happy. And He's refusing it. He's fucking refusing to see someone he supposively "Loves" because He wants to wait. and he doesn't fucking care I've cried Seven fucking times this week wanting him to come, begging him to come, and beginning a fucking Anxiety Disorder for his ass. And It hurts.. I'm tired of this shit.. I really really fucking hate it. For someone who loves me.. he sure as hell has the wrong way to prove it.. Next time he attempts to care for me.. I'm shoving it in his face.. because Already I'm hurting and we aren't even a relationship. -Matti