My Lip Hurts.. Only because Megan was a lil rough over at my house. Im fine with it, I Didnt want her bored.. but there's Nothing much to do here, We played sims, slept, ate, and watched tv.. Even took a walk out in the woods, Just one trip around. cause my feet hurt from the extreme Burning of the sand. "Now I cant breathe.. No I cant sleep.. Im Barely Hanging On.. Here I Am! Once Again! Im Torn Into Pieces! Cant Deny It! Cant Pretend! Just Thought You Were The One! Broken Up! Deep Inside! Behind These Hazel Eyes!".... That songs Pretty. Im Obsessed with it.. Also "DHT- Listen to your heart" "Listen to your heart.. when he's calling for you.. Listen to your heart..Theres nothing else you can do, I dont know where your Going.. and I Dont know why.. But Listen to Your Heart.. Before You Tell Him GoodBye..." Yeah.. that songs pretty also, Just the slow version.. Cause all it has is Piano.. and I Love the Piano.. I want to get the music sheets for that song, Ive looked all online.. cant find it.. Sucks for me. Well Yeah, Im depressive.. In a week I have to leave.. Thats fine and all, Its the fact Im leaving friends..Again.. Blake didnt want me to leave.. I didnt want to leave. and its not just leaving Jacksonville, Its Leaving Jacksonville, and then having to Leave Interlachen. Why the hell cant mom plan ahead.. Evicted twice.. One Year.. Sucks for me.. But I wont have to deal with that for long.. Nope.. No More having to Cook all my own food. Cause Moms too lazy to make two meals since Im Vegitarian and all.. No More Internet Neglection.. DSL in every room.. No More Failing.. No More Being Bitched at for everything.. I Dunno if Megan Noticed this weekend, but EVERYTHING mom wants to complain about. She Complains to Me.. she NEVER Calls Zach.. Nope.. Its always me.. Does she Have a Disfunction or somthing?... I Hate it.. I Hate this house.. For MANY reasons.. Ick.. The Only things I WILL Miss, Is All My stuff, My Dog(s) Lefty, Ming Po, and Mohawk.. I think I'll Miss Mohawk the most.. I dunno why.. I guess its cause she's a Puppy. But Of Course, I'll Miss my friends, as Ive already stated Above. Its six In the morning, I dont know when I passed out.. I Just remembered, as soon as Megan Got Picked up, I Passed out. and Layed there, woke up around.. Three?.. I Dunno, I just sat here at the computer, Trying to get it to work, and as you can see, Ive fixed it, All I had to do was As soon as I could, sign On, Go into the Control Pannel, and Delete alot of shit that was downloaded on the computer.. then restart, FREQUENTLY!.. but its worth it.. I Think I broke yahoo though.. I guess I'll Have to Redownload it. Oh well.. Not my computer. Its my brother.. I know he's gonna go "DOUBLE YEW TEE EFF MATE!"... Well.. Not in those words.. but you Comprehend. Dude.. Lately Ive been really wanting a boyfriend.. Im Still Not going to allow myself to have one.. But There's always the thought of having one. I like the thought of being held, and even on those days, I feel so goddamn Hideous I cant even look in a mirror without wanting to cry. They can still tell me Im Beautiful.. Hopeless romantic eh?.. Its Comes with being Gay. Ive been Exercising alot lately.. Well.. Trying.. I dont wanna get fat.. And I feel I am, so Ive been doing alot of sit ups and shit.. and well, I "Think" Im Succeeding.. I dunno yet.. We'll Have to see.. I'll keep this up for.. Err. Two More Weeks, No Improvement.. then I'll Grab a container of Ice cream and Chow down.. That'll Help with my self esteem.. yep yep.. Erm.. Lets see.. A week and four days till I Go To The Vans Warped tour.. I cant wait to see Terry there.. I want to Give him a good bye hug.. perhaps a kiss, Doubt that though, the Only time we made out was when That party happened about a few months back.. When Nicole asked who in order would he make out with, and apparently I was on the top.. but she told me later on she clarified it was "Which 'Girl'".. although He knew i was a guy.. I was still on the top of it.. god my lip hurts.. That reminds me.. My Ear got Infected.. Not like.. the Literal Ear.. But The Hommade Piercing I did. The Hoop one I had.. always Got Snagged.. and one day at Starr's House.. It got snagged again,and I went and Grabbed My ear, as a reaction and all, and I felt it getting wet, went into the bathroom, and saw it was puss.. (If your eating and you read this.. sorry?) so I Had to get it out.. TOOK FOREVER!.. and I was bleeding like a bitch.. but.. I survived. and its healing.. When it fully heals, I'll Just pierce It again.. Oh, I Got My Tallahassee Address.. So If Any of You Would Like To Mail me.. Wait Until Next week to start the Letters.. Well.. Perhaps.. Wait Until The Fifth Of August Before Sending any letters or summat like that.. But..Here you go 1623 Sharkey st. Tallahassee FL, 32304. You May Mail Me, but Im not allowed to have people come visit Me without pre approval.. Jeremy Ordered that.. Well, Yeah.. I dunno what else to say without Repeating myself.. Again.. So I'll Write later.. -Matti