So apparently I decided to Put Silver Hair coloring spray that you can buy at the Dollar store for two dollar's, and it washes out. People at school are idiots. Ive heard so many retared remarks. These black girls that I passed..all of them called me the devil and said to each other That Im going to hell. They apparently dont know my life. Chris thinks he's leaving. I wont let him leave me. Not after everything Ive been through with him. Nothing will allow me to widthstand and watch him go. Chris Burlingham, Ive gotten back on his good side. which is a good thing cause I hate people being mad at me. Except he was flirting, Okay to do..but Not with Hurting me. Thats a No-no. I dont like being hurt..I like being cared for when i get hurt. And so here I am. I havent Updated this diary in day's..Why?..Cause Ive been to busy being alone. ..Do You think Im too young to Need Love?...Cause I really want it. I have it..but its so far from me. And I want it closer. I think I have Johnny on my good side, If Only I could get ahold of Seth. Cause..yeah. Today's day went pretty..Lame. First Period..boring. Second Period. I sit next to a guy I have a crush on..and I feel so horrible and depressed to know he would never notice me. So Symone, My friend, She asked me to draw her Some Johnny The Homicidal Maniac Shit. I, Have never literally seen it. But she has the comixs. So I drew Johnny twice, Squee Once. and a few other people and gave it back to her. Then I Drew her Foamy the squirrel...If you dont know who that is.. Go to this site (http://www.illwillpress.com/vault.html).. But Anywho. Im really tired... I skipped third period. Like Usual. Ive only gone to that class...Two Weeks this whole Year. Then Fourth. Ahh..fourth.. God the teacher is Odd. Everyday I dress in my usual Creepy way. and she always comes up with "we need to talk after class"..we never do.. first she wants to talk about how I dress, then why I wore fishnet, then Why I wore High heel's. then Why I wore Girls Pants, then Why I draw on my face with Permanent Marker and Make up, then Why I Spray Painted my hair with Hair Paint.. I Swear, By the time she talks to me... I wont get out of the damn school. But Yeah. Oh well. I caught some sleep in that class, Then went home to Tabatha's... Jennifer's birthday is tomorrow, I want to get her somthing but I cant go to her place, cause I promised my friend Sylvia, who's been my friend since forever. that I would go to her Halloween Parti, that Im kind of looking forward to. But Yeah...Im so tired.. and I have alot to think about. Especially Chris, Tabatha Now know's since I confessed everything. that No matter how Much I said bad things about him..Im still in love with him more than anything. and I miss him.