.. Today was okay.. I went to sleep last night on the couch. and then Jackie and Jordan came over, Used my computer while I went back to sleep, then me and Jackie went to the pool.. Eventually we went to the Multipurpose room by the Public pool, and hung out with my cousin for her birthday party thing that was going on, She's now Twelve. Happy birthday Ashley. Then jackie and I went back to swimming, some guy was trying to be an ass, calling me a faggot everytime he saw me.. whatever... We headed back to my room and Hung out with Jordan who was "STILL" on my computer... Jackie Gadged my ear, it was a regular ear hole "18"..how its a ten or twelve. It hurts like a bitch, but whatever. Tomorrows the Mother Shuckin Birthday show. Im going to be wearing my black and red tripp pants. and then I have a black shirt from fusion, that I safety Pinned on this sign I made from another shirt, that quotes "Cant you Tell Im Gay?" Yeah.. stupid. but I like it. We've Been Playing in make-up, and all that.. I always look horrible.. no matter what.. But yeah, as soon as Im done talking to Adam, and Typing this Entry. Then I have to head back over, Im spending the night. Now I'll talk about yesterday.. Yesterday I walked to Ed White, at Six in the morning, got there at seven ten, right as the bell rings, everyone was shocked to see me, and I got Losta Hugs.. I stayed in Mr. Lougrans first, with the "Visitor" pass. Then when Mr. Loughran said I had to leave, right once Second period was starting, I went up to the office, said I needed it again, Mr. Loughran wanted me to stay.. and Followed Jenny to Her class and stayed in there. I showed him my pass and said I was staying with her for the day. Gave back the pass after second, and stayed, Skipping in that class, she stayed too, to finish on a project... I went to second and Third Lunch. Second was cool, I hund out with Kylie, and Adam... I kept wanting to flirt with him, cause I like him alot.. and everytime I said somthing that Only me and him understood, he busted out laughing.. trying to hide it.. Kylie had glue.. so I was pouring it on my hand, and peeling it off when it dried.. I put some on adam, and then the bell rang.. He says he Peeled it off in class...yeah fun Then I went to third lunch. I saw ALOT of people.. I got hugs..from everybody... Even Terry.. :(... I went Home with Symone, and then Went to the mall with her, played games, then Went to the movies.. Saw "Hitchhikers guide to the galaxy"...Omg the Most Fucking Stupidest Movie you'll ever see...-.-. All you had to do is listen to the beginning, and that was good enough To Make you hate it. They dropped me off that night.. It was fun...I loved it... And.. Missed Adam Emmensely.. But I dont really want to talk about that.. Im not suppose to like him anymore.. A few days ago, he wanted for us to start new. so I said I would..and Not Like him anymore... Impossible.. Im like Literally Head over Heals In love with him.. yet.. Cant be.. because of His girlfriend..and I dont want him upset at me for ruining anything.. Im Not talking to Stevie anymore.. after the Incident where he yelled at me being a dipshit.. I told him the truth about how our relationship was an accident... Now I dont think I have to worry bout him. May sound mean, but Trust me, He does things too, to upset people. Andy's Mad at me, because I was furious with him.. He was Smoking, and He Promised His girlfriend he wouldnt anymore, and secretly I like him..alot... and I bet he can tell.. But yeah.. He was smoking, and was going to get high the other night.. when I walked by him, and say "im mad at you"... and He looks at me and replies "From Smoking"?.. And I nodded.. "You Arent My Mother I can do whatever the fuck I want".... He's never spoke to me like that before... made me feel horrible..Inside and out... I didnt want to do anything anymore.. ... Jordan asked me if I liked Him.. because I wasnt talking to him... and Was really upset when I saw him.. I didnt Answer her.. I kept my mouth shut. Im Tired of it..Im tired of crying.. because of other people, and the way I think.. I Want to give up so badly.. Yet I Promised too many fucking people.. I Repeatedly say I dont want anyone, but yet.. I lie.. To You, and Myself. I dont know.... The Mother Shuckin Birthday Show's Tomorrow, Maybe I'll start A-new.. and meet people.. I know I cant Like them as much as adam.. or anything, but.. I can sure as hell try...