you know what sucks?.. as Much as I want to be alone.. I cant get these two guys out of my head.. Andy- Sixteen, in middle school from failing.. He.. I dont know.. he's sweet to me sometimes, and..yeah.. but..See this is where it ends.. He claims to be straight (although we all know he's at least bi).. and He's Getting Engaged to his girlfriend Sam... im screwed there.. Then. Adam- I dont really know his age, but I know he's older than me. but yeah.. Last year, he was planning on asking me out.. but I didnt know him then, nor did I know he liked me. Cause we never talked.. Ever. Then we started talking online.. and i developed a crush on him..and well.. One day he blew me off and said "Im looking for a woman in my life right now"..so i gave up.. and..now he has a girlfriend he wants to spend the rest of his life with, even though he claims he loves me.. I want to give up so badly on relationships.. adam knows I care so much.. but I cant even tell andy.. Im just going to go to bed and cry.. My stupidity Promised that if Jordan didnt cut, than I wouldnt cut anymore either.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Josh that fucker, wants me to go to this thing so I have a social life.. Its on the sixteenth, at Five pm. the site to get the information is.. UU JAX I remember talking about Josh, if your one of my Readers from..FOREVER.. then you'll know, I started "My Only Love".. because I had a crush on Josh.. and..err yeah..unfortunatley He's straight.. girls always complain about How All the hot guys are taken FUCK YOU!!.. All the guys I crush on, are straight.. -Matti