the Ending to Rainbow boys Sucked ass.. but I wont tell you about it.. Read it yourself.. I started 'Night' today, about a boy going to a concentration camp.. its good so far. Then I have to read this book for class.. thrilling.. So Im depressed.. When am I not? I met Josh's girlfriend today.. that hurt.. Then He tried flirting with me after he kissed her goodbye on her bus.. That hurt worse.. Then, Just a few ago.. Tyler was On MSN, on his mic, talking to me.. and he goes Tyler: We were talking about you, kinda funny Matti: Who? Tyler: My psychiatrist and I Tyler: He Goes 'Meet any nice guys?' and I go 'Yeah, I met one, He's really nice.. Too Emo to date though' then He goes 'yeah, I know how you dont like those emo kids' and I go, 'Yeah.. I want to hang out with him sometime though'.. all that put me in the state Im in right now.. Plus colin kept trying to kiss me.. Its agrivating me.. I got out of it the last time, cause One) He had to leave and Two) a Parent was there. so That was good.. Im feeling the sudden urg to cut.. Deep.. anywhere .. just somewhere.. and no one can stop me if I Do.. I mean. no one who lives near me Physically Knows about my diary..and everyone else who does.. no one reads it anymore.. so its all good.. .. For the past.. Eight, Nine, Possibly Ten Nights, Right when I lay down.. Ive been praying to somthing.. To Just let me die.. yet here I still am..unfortunately.. Ima go.. lay down.. today sucked.. Im not going to talk to anyone tomorrow.. just.. sit alone.. -Matti