I wrote this private because Blake didnt want anyone to know about what we did last night. So here. im Just going to Copy and Paste a Conversation One of my close friends and I Had Today. It Explains it all. *Matti*: I have a headache, Im Exhausted.. Everything.. And Last night didnt help either i_love_emo_like_whoa: What happened ? i_love_emo_like_whoa: if you don't mind me asking. *Matti*: Well me and blake rented a motel. And we had sex.. The Sex was Great.. I Mean thats not the problem.. but later he asked me how it was, and Of Course, I told him I Loved it... then I Asked him If We Were now Considered Officially Together, and he said "No.. But I Do care about you, or I would of gone to the metro and Just had sex with some random guy, instead I chose to be with you".. i_love_emo_like_whoa: That bitch! *Matti*: I waited till he was asleep, and went into the bathroom and cut.. i_love_emo_like_whoa: No Matti...tell me you didn't... *Matti*: Its not bad, Its not near bad, I Just Started scratching my wrist a little, and Just peeled off the first few layers of skin.. i_love_emo_like_whoa: ok...just..don't hurt yourself over him, if he can't see what a great guy he's missing out on then he shouldn't have you at all. i_love_emo_like_whoa: I mean, you're awesome, and cute. If I was a guy and gay and I was with you, I would definitely show you off. i_love_emo_like_whoa: and you're really sensitive and caring, and he should see that and be greatful you're even interested. *Matti*: heh, I doubt he's told anyone about me.. *Matti*: and I Tell everyone.. i_love_emo_like_whoa: He should tell everyone..you're great. i_love_emo_like_whoa: And I bet you're nothing less than willing to do anything for him to make him feel better after he's had a shitty day...or cuddle with him when he wants to..-if he wants to that is- ...you're a Great guy. *Matti*: He held me last night, then I got up, went into the bathroom, cut, came back, and laid down, He didnt Pull me back till Six or later in the morning ,when I moved, and He Opened his eyes. i_love_emo_like_whoa: wow.... i_love_emo_like_whoa: what an ass.. i_love_emo_like_whoa: Does he know you cut ? *Matti*: yeah.. i_love_emo_like_whoa: He should've been watching out for you.. *Matti*: He pointed them out..again, when we were in the shower, I begged him to ignore it, and he goes "I know.. I know.. I am.. Im trying" i_love_emo_like_whoa: ..at least he's trying..but he cares i_love_emo_like_whoa: wait..what does he say about them ? *Matti*: He doesnt like them, He's trying to get me better.. and he wants to make me a prep, which wont happen, but he's trying i_love_emo_like_whoa: lol...well at least he cares... i_love_emo_like_whoa: Just tell him if he loves you he'll accept you like you are. *Matti*: Im waiting, and Im going to say "I Love you" To him, and if He says it back..then I know.. i_love_emo_like_whoa: Yeah..when are you planning on saying it ? *Matti*: no clue *Matti*: If I see him tonight, then tonight, if not, the next time i see him *Matti*: While having sex he kept whispering stuff like "Your so Hot.." "Your Amazing"..so..yeah i_love_emo_like_whoa: Aww.. i_love_emo_like_whoa: that's so sweet.. i_love_emo_like_whoa: OMG....gaysex..wow...I'm like..horny..*must go take a cold shower.. *Matti*: Oh Lets Just say.. We Did EVERY Position Possible, and I Cummed all over my stomache, then He Pulled out and Started Shooting everywhere, Made it to My Cheek i_love_emo_like_whoa: .....>.<...>.> i_love_emo_like_whoa: Stoppit! *Matti*: We Didnt have Lotion, so he gave me a rim job while I was Sucking His dick. *Matti*: Now THAT! Feels good i_love_emo_like_whoa: O_O i_love_emo_like_whoa: You're EBIL i_love_emo_like_whoa: Keep going xD! i_love_emo_like_whoa: j/k *Matti*: You want me to? *Matti*: Literally? *Matti*: I will *Matti*: I wanna tell Someone i_love_emo_like_whoa: lol I like hearing about it so..yeah! *Matti*: Haha, want me to tell from the beginning? i_love_emo_like_whoa: Sure ^_^ *Matti*: Alright *Matti*: well we got to the Motel and went in *Matti*: he sat down and started watching tv, I Took off my shoes and was looking around Laughing at how horrible the place was. *Matti*: Then Some how we ended up talking in the bathroom, And he moved really close in, so I Moved back and started Making Out with him..Then He pulled away.. I whimpered (LITERALLY XD) and He grabbed my hand and Took me back to the bed. Where He pulled me ontop of him and I started making out with him more *Matti*: he started Rubbing up my sides and took off my shirt. *Matti*: Then He took off His *Matti*: ..He took off His Pants (He doesnt wear Underwear Much) *Matti*: And Took off mine... Then He took off my boxers.. *Matti*: and I sat there on Him making out with him, rubbing Him, and Pinching His Nipple, while I could feel His Dick Right There Under my ass. *Matti*: I Started biting On His neck, and he started moaning a little, which made me pinch harder on his nipple, as I kept Sucking On his Neck.. And Moving Down, biting His nipple, and moving back up.. and making out with him again. *Matti*: He Asked for a BJ, and I told him I'd Never given Or recieved one before. so he goes, "Try it".. So I Licked down his stomache, biting his nipple again, and started sucking on his dick.. He Eventually.. Turned around, So We were In Sixty Nine Position, and he started sucking on me too, while I still sucked him, Then He Moved my legs Down, and spread my ass and Started Rimming Me.. *Matti*: Which is probably the hotest thing Ive ever felt. i_love_emo_like_whoa: wow...hawtness *Matti*: I kept sucking on his dick, till finally He Pulls me up and started making out with me again, and he moves His dick trying to get it Put right, I take my hand and put his dick where its suppose to go, and slowly sit down (It hurt at first.. but ONLY at first, Like for two Seconds).. He asked me if I was alright. I nodded and Slowly Moved Up and Down a little, Then He took over and I just sat there Making out with him as He Kept Moving in and out. *Matti*: We Did this for about ten Minutes Before He Rolled me over and he was Ontop, And Kept Going in deeply and back out again, Making out ( we do this all through it usually) *Matti*: Then He Moved off the bed, and Started doing it from that way.. and moved back On the bed, and Lifted my legs Over His shoulders. (Which hurt, cause it goes in DEEP from that Position).. *Matti*: And we kept doing this Forever. Till Finally I Grabbed my dick and started Jacking off, Then cummed.. And soon After that He Pulled himself out and Shot everywhere, on me, the bed everything, Made out some more, and went into the shower cleaning up and making out.. *Matti*: thats the first time, wanna hear the second? i_love_emo_like_whoa: Suuure *Matti*: Okay, well I was laying there trying to sleep, Cause I have Insomnia, I was Parcially Asleep, More Like, Thinking so Hard I Didnt Know I was awake, Next thing I knew, I Feel Him rubbing my stomache and my dick, and I open my eyes and role over and Kiss him, He says "Good Morning"..and I nodded, Then He Propped himself Up on his Elbow and made out with me some more, Till He Pulled me on top of him, and made out with me For fifteen minutes..Then..He positioned his dick again, and I started Pushing down (it hurt..)..then he goes "one second" Pulls Out, Spits on his fingers and Wets His dick and my ass.. Then I push back down deep in me (didnt hurt much anymore, and kept Moving In and out, He took over again.. And Laid me On My back and started Going really deep and really fast, I Kept Moaning *Matti*: Slightly *Matti*: and every five minutes it looked like he was about to Cum.. *Matti*: He Lifted One Leg, and Kept Pushing in deeply (I kept feeling Like I was about to cum).. Then Finally, I started Jacking off again, and he kept kissing me, and Pushing in REALLY DEEP, which Made me cum ALOT. Then he did the same, Pulled out again when about to cum, and Cummed all over my dick.. *Matti*: Later, He goes "I should pay you now and go back to my boyfriend"..I Pouted (Knew he was joking but still).. and He goes "Will Ten bucks do?".... and I got upset and Ignored him, and he goes "Im kidding babe, You Got Me Moaning. Your Way better. *Matti*: Yeah..there were alot of things whispered during sex, but I dont remember most of it i_love_emo_like_whoa: ...awww. *Matti*: yeah *Matti*: thats why I dont want to take that thing he said to heart.. i_love_emo_like_whoa: yeah... *Matti*: cause it shows that he cares, i guess I just have to earn him over to Call him my boyfriend i_love_emo_like_whoa: I suppose so.... i_love_emo_like_whoa: you guys seem so adorable together. *Matti*: He's Suppose to call tonight, if not, Ima call. *Matti*: yeah.. *Matti*: I Like.. Love him already.. i_love_emo_like_whoa: ...I thought I loved Marc..I told him so and he said he'd loved this other girl for two years..and yet he told me he liked me like g/f liked me. *Matti*: yeah. well I fall Easily..so yeah.. i_love_emo_like_whoa: I asked if he liked me at all even slightly like I liked him..and he was like... Not really.. *Matti*: i_love_emo_like_whoa: fucking broke my heart and now I find out that He's dating another girl not 4 weeks after he told me he loved the other one..-sighs-..why couldn't I be the one with him when he gave up on the first girl *Matti*: yeah.. i_love_emo_like_whoa: Anyways *Matti*: Im Copying and Pasting our Coversation Into My Diary, Cause Im too lazy to Type what all Blake and I did again. Okay? i_love_emo_like_whoa: okay I want him so badly.. again, He's Hot.