So Blake Really Still cares for me.. He Finally IMed me.. He's Never on. I would put the convo in here.. but Im a Perve.. basically he said that he wanted me to visit.. and I told him I wouldnt be able to till a little before Decemeber.. or maybe In December..and I Requested for him to come see me.. He then told me it'd almost be impossible since he worked fifty hour weeks.. Time and Time Ive told him to stop over working.. he never listens.. but since he works so Much I again Requested that He should get a weekend off and come visit me.. And then.. another Hotel.. So Yeah.. if He comes to visit me. You know what'll Happen. and if you dont.. your too young to be reading this diary anyway. ------ My First week of school is over.. It actually turned out pretty cool.. Got Lost the Second Day of school and ended up in the wrong class.. since there was a sub, I didnt know I was in the wrong class till the next day.. I had to go and Apologize.. it was pathetic of me.. my Schedule.. Odd days Third Period: English Honours Fifth Period: Biology Seventh Period: geometry I think thats how its goes Even Days Second Period: Computer Lab (basically Anything) Fourth Period: Film Entertainment Sixth: History Film Entertainment's getting changed so yeah.. Im getting rid of my Only Elective.. Which is stupid. but I need to pass in three years instead of four.. I have three and a half credits.. and I need twenty four by the age of eighteen. and here I am..sixteen. ------ I have all of two maybe three friends.. Colin. a guy I met on myspace before I moved.. Extremely gay. but so Am I. so its all good.. We share a locker. which is awesome. Then there's Rachel, She's Okay.. cool sometimes.. She's Obsessed with the Punisher.. and when she forgets her medicine.. her ADD gets annoying..really annoying.. I at least have her in one class.. then this Hippie girl, I dunno her name.. I need to return her CD's.. I need to remember that grr.. this random guy I think is cute.. walked up to me on friday. cause I wore a Short Plaid skirt..and he asked for a hug.. and gave it to him.. I knew before hand that he had a girlfriend though.. and he said he wanted to make out with a transvestite.. and Im like "Im just a crossdresser".. basically turning him down.. One)..no bisexuals.. Two) No one in a relationship.. and Three).. Im ment to be alone. No Questions asked. ------ So my Mom came today to visit me I got some stuff from her.. She brought my teddy bear, Spike, Ive Missed him so much.. My favourite bear in the world.. She also brought me some more clothing.. which is cool..cant have too much clothing.. I threw out the shit I didnt want.. :P ....*sighs*.. for some reason my nose is REALLY REALLY cold, and my eyes are slightly hot.. I think im getting sick.. I better not.. I love my school.. and I dont wanna be sick when it starts.. anyway.. Ima go.. I dunno what ima do about blake.. He asked me "Anyone Touch my baby?".. and I replied "what do you mean?" ...cause you know.. One) I didnt know who his baby was.. and Two).. touched me how?.. and He Responded with "Has anyone Touched you the way I have".. "no.. no ones really touched me".. "good".. I think I asked why. if I had the convo still up.. I would basically get it word from word, but stupid ass me.. I got rid of it.. but yeah..then some shit was said... I dont remember what.. he said somthing along the lines of "I want to be the only one to touch you.. for now".. and I responded with "Until you find someone better that is".. "No!" and yeah.. he denies it.. but its hard to believe it.. alot of people do.. Im like.. their step up to the real relationships.. You know.. I'll draw a Diagram |Love---------- |Commitment------- |Lasting Relationship |Long term Relationship- |basic Relationship-------- |Player----------------------- |Fucking with Matti-------------- thats how it is.. yep.. Im The First step... and then it reaches Higher and Higher.. -Matti