so yeah.. things seem to be fine now. I have ALOT to tell you, since I've been so horrible at keeping up and all. well okay so jordan is out of the picture and I'm going to tell you why. we ended up hanging out a few more times and sometimes with his friend sara, who is a big knock out, she's hilarious. so sara tells me about how he's all bi polar and shit and that he can't take jokes, and my only way to be able to flirt is through joking and that made it difficult on me. jordan and I eventually went to warped tour together, where before hand. he kissed me. and right then I knew I didn't like him. he just wasn't right for me, It became bluntly obvious right once he had kissed me to notice that. and so we go to warped tour and I had warned him a million little girls will wanna talk to me, and that I'll be talking back to keep my reputation and be extremely nice. that night on the way back I overheard him talking to megan, because megan and george had taken us to warped tour. That he really didn't have much fun and he would of rather hung out with them then me because i had all these girls. and it was completely stupid of him since I told him that I would and he didn't believe me from the start. then he had to be an ass, We were walking down the sidewalk at warped and this guy just walks by and hands me a card, and I'm like, 'thank you' and kept going, Jordan was RIGHT next to me when it happened. and when I talked to them later about it he denied it ever happening, and that I must of picked it up off of the ground. and it upset me that he would do that. He hasn't talked to me since, And I'm perfectly fine with that. he was being extremely rude to his mom when going back on greyhound anyway. so yeah enough with him. I ended up seeing a new boy, the day before warped tour I met him at the mall and hung out with him the whole day, Jennifer, matt, Bradley and I were all at the mall. I kept ditching jennifer and matt to be with bradley and we did all sorts of things like play in the little kids stores and stuff. Matt ended up having a fit and ever chance he saw us tried to ruin it, saying shit like, 'Eating cum has alot of protein in it' and shit like that. Just Anything to make himself feel better. when I told them I would probably be doing it anyway. Eventually Bradley had to leave and pretty soon so did Jennifer. so I was stuck in the mall with matt. we basically just did whatever till about three when I went to hottopic for my interview. and after that I couldn't find matt and I ended up looking forever for him. which was impossible for me to do since I had to leave shortly afterwards to go to warped tour with jordan. I eventually find out that matt had fallen asleep on the bench and was waiting for me to get over with my interview but I just never saw him. Then I went to warped tour, and it was pretty fun, Jordan thought I was a complete poser cause I only went to see friends and not the bands, since I barely knew the bands as it was. which wasn't the case, he was just retarded. and I end up getting the largest sunburn in the world, it blistered up and everything, and right now it's still in the process of healing. It hurt so badly, I'm surprised I don't have cancer yet. but yeah, I ended up leaving all of that to call bradley and just talk on the phone with him for an hour or so, which I wasn't allowed to do since the phone isn't free before nine pm, but I hadn't talked to him in a day and a half and I don't get signal in interlachen. so it was completely difficult. I end up having to get jennifers mom to pay jeremy the bill for the phone, I owe her back for it. as soon as I got back Bradley was suppose to come to my house, but jeremy pitched a fit and started yelling at me for the bill. so instead I went to his house where I spent the night with him. and ever night afterwards we stayed together one way or another. the first night his house, the second night jennifers, and then we went to our seperate homes, where he found his dad still wasn't home and I missed him terribly so we both walked and I took him back to my place. last night was the first night I actually slept with out him for a while. and I'm to see him again today which I'm extremely excited about since.. He's my boyfriend and all, and has been since the 23rd. so yeah.. I'm really happy to see him again and can't wait. Matt also has a boyfriend. Cesar. I had slept with cesar one night because.. I thought I was going to be with him a while back, and I feel completely horrible for doing so. he just isn't right for me. and I feel I'm getting picky.. and I don't want that. I just want to be able to stick with a boy. and Bradley is that boy and I'm going to keep him for as long as possible. we haven't had sex. I'm trying to hold that out, since he's a virgin. we have had oral and hand jobs though. I'm perfectly fine with that. I can't resist his breathing in my ear deeply when he's about to cum. I just can't. -Matti