and so, Im Invited to go see Cry Wolf With Lily and her friend Jeremy Not to be mistaken with my brother jeremy at all. .. Found out this thursday and friday Im skipping school. Not my choice of course, but yeah. I am Going to go visit my mom. Go To the doctors about my ear, and then have to go to these people about my dissability. Im to tell them that I Hear My name being called, and Music being played in the background, when there isnt any. Then Im to tell them that Im Extremely Depressive.. Some days Im so Depressed I just want to die, and another day, Im completely Happy and overfilled with joy. Im to also tell them that I have extremely Low self esteem and that I cant go to regular public school because of my lack of self esteem and I always feel People are Picking on me. Most these things are true of course, but it still feels Like Im Lying. Oh well.. So I went deaf in my ear as everyone already knows, It got worse this morning, not the pain thing, the pain is basically gone, just the whole, Hearing thing, I Can hear out of it I know, but I can hear myself more than out, its completely muffled.. and when I pop my ear, it doesnt help at all.. I feel like bawling.. again. god I do it too much.. I just feel like putting on headphones and Just crying.. ----- Ive started My MattiComix, Its Getting up slowly but surely.. Lucky Me. Ima go for now. Waiting basically to go to the Movies, Gonna buy me Hot pink and black hair dye, then Ima Get my hair cut on Thursday or friday, and Then Dye it.. Maybe I can talk my mom into Eighty Dollars worth Of Peircings... hopefully, since I NEVER see her. -Matti