school here starts soon.. Ive really settled in and liking it here in tallahassee. Still alone.. "correction"..even more alone than before. I mean its cool to be an adult, do what I want, as long as I stay on guidelines.. but. what sucks most is that Im put with most of the Responsibility. and I stay quiet most of the day. Seriously. I feel Like Im annoying my brother jeremy and the roomates.. so I just.. shut up, dont talk..Nothing.. Just do whatever. Mostly sitting on the computer in my room. Its not even my computer, yet I still sit on it. Until Jeremy yells at me every four minutes to do somthing. I have two jobs in this house. Doing dishes every night, and the Laundry for everyone. Of course Im getting paid for the laundry. but i feel its very unfair that Im the ONLY one in the house of four doing somthing. Im not going to say anything.. I guess I'll just deal. .Its just depressive.. I'll See Jeremy and his boyfriend sitting on the couch watching tv together, doing what boyfriends do..and Im in the kitchen, alone. doing the dishes. because Im fucking forced to. and then im off to my room. I still wish I cut.. so I could get rid of most of this.. I really do.. .. I have a pretty good damn arguement. dont you think?.. Ive only been here lets see.. ehh..about a week... and already. Im doing everything. And I Get Third Choices too!.. Im Concidered a "Roomate Here"..then why am I not treated like one?.. No one asks my opinion. no instead. they joke about me, and threaten to call me their house maid.. What bullshit... I love being an adult. cause I can do things for myself. Cept eat.. I refuse to eat unless someone sits down with me, because if people leave me to feeding myself. I'll become anorexic.. but besides that.. Im pretty damn good at fending for myself. I'd be Better Living on my own. Being depressed alone. I cant even cry here without someone knocking on my door every five minutes and Me having to sober it up in less than three steps.. *sighs*.. Im getting a used computer, I have a Used bed, the smallest room. Im not allowed to be in the living room with a drink Of Water. and they're allowed to bring Chocolate anything.. Im just.. seriously Pissed off at this arangement. Im Sixteen, Not Twelve... Fuck I got the shit end of the deal.. I dunno.. Im just going to go to bed early tonight, cause I know I'll cry a few and finally pass out an hour later.. ..... If I re-read this.. I swear Im a Drama Queen.