how come everytime I get a boyfriend guys pop up out of no where and try to hit on me?... Its fucking annoying, I hate it, and I dont want it. Im not a cheater, I will never be a cheater, I never want to be a cheater. I mean, yeah I was Interested in other guys before, but Im not going to permit in them flirting with me. Joey was talking to me about him and a fuck buddy. and I remarked with "I thought I would be the only guy you'd fuck" and he goes "Well, yeah but he's a fuck buddy"..and I told him I had to go and got off the phone. He Knows Im mad at him, I told him to just fuck the other guy. Im not so mad about the fact that he promised me that, I could care less about that because well. He's in virginia, and Sex isnt the most important thing in my life. Plus the news of being taken now. Its more of, He has a girlfriend, and an ex in jacksonville that he promised he would go back out with when he came back. and here he is. fucking a guy, and none of them know of his bisexuality. I dunno, its fucked up. Then a Friend I havent talked to in months named reilly comes along going "TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK OF THIS GUY" ..last I heard from her she was dating This guy, and thought perhaps they broke up and she wants to get my opinion on her new Interest. No its a gay guy, and apparently he wants to talk to me. I told her I would talk to him, but nothing more. Apparently she doesnt keep up with my info, like most people dont. If Another guy tries to hit on me, Im directing him to my myspace and to read carefully. cause its fucked up. seriously fucked up. Nothing feels changed in me, Like when you get that new boyfriend feel that new form of comfort to know someone liked you that much to ask you out. I dont have that feeling.. Im just waiting for it In Late january to come. and when it does. I know it'll hit hard.. and I wont be able to think of anything else but being excited. I dunno.. I have nothing realy to say tonight. Im not in the mood to talk about literal things that have happened, more of Feelings.. but I just.. dont have any right now.. -Matti