I know I know,I havent Updated In A While. But Ive been Busy. Apparently I met a guy in my life. Terry. Yeah.. Its been Hectic Starts out with Us Kissing At A Party, Me Starting to like him, then Me fully Liking him. Then Getting Rumors he likes me back. Finding out he doesnt like me, Then He Cant Decide. Its Awkward And Stupid and I wish It would end. Now his excuse is "I want to go out with you, but I dont know want my parents to Find out".. yeah yeah.. Ive heard em all. If I cant be with him, then I Could always try to get Andy To Come out of the closet. but I dont think it would happen.. He Didnt seem like wanting to. Or Will he admit it. I think not. Im probably failing my classes, Im trying hard as hell to work on them. And Yeah. Its A Struggle. Me And tabatha Are friends again, Im hoping eventually it can lead back to our best friendship, and I can Keep Mine and stephanie's Friendship from Intercepting into mine And Tabatha's. Terry's trying to turn me punk, he wants me To Listen to Rancid. I have no Problem with it at all, Whatever will make terry Like me more.. Im trying. Im gothic as it is. I have rejoined Vampirefreaks. so If You want to add me, Im Matti I have Nothing really more to say at this moment. except. LOVE SUCKS, and BEING ALONE SUCKS MORE. -Matti