Okay okay.. I know.. I dont update often.. Maybe I should... start doing it daily again.. Perhaps People would leave me more comments and make me feel like im important again?.. I dont know.. But I sure as hell have alot to say. Ive gotten a boyfriend.. His names Eric, I met Him on DarkStarlings.com.. and We Planned to see each other over spring break (dont worry people, I talked to him on the phone, and watched his webcam to make sure he was real.. Plus the fact that my mom was there).. Then we took him back to my place and he stayed from wednesday to Sunday. Of course.. Allowing us to stay together we did have sex... ten times... Not like you wanted to know that anyway. NEXT! I miss him.. he lives in fernadina Beach.. and yeah.. it sucks ass. Hopefully I can get him to come back Not this weekend, but next. I dont have class tomorrow. its Wednesday.. and I dont have classes on wednesdays.. ROCK ON!.. Ehh, My next door neighbor, Jordan, she turned Fully Lesbian.. she wants me to help her find a girlfriend because she is lonely.. I dont want her to be lonely.. I dont like it when my friends are depressive... So Im going to try with that. Oh!.. I have a stalker, and most likely he's reading this right now.. Some person I met online a hell of along time ago moved here, and now he knows everything about me.. My name, What school I went to, Where all my diaries are. He knows my friends. He knows where they live.He knows where I Live! Everything.. Its Not really creeping me out until somthing happens. but its A little Disturbing that someone is doing this. I want to tell people.. I told my mom, but she just doesnt really care... Umm... I have added a few more Gothic Friends to My site. Its Actually running well, I want to Get it Perfect.. so Ive called of the Assistance of Star-girl.org.. Hopefully Jenny (Owner).. will help me with that. Cause she's awesome and has helped me in the past. Umm, Ive actually started writting a song, Im still working on it.. but its really great (to me anyway).. Im waiting for mom to give me Batteries so I can start Making music to it.. I just have the Vocal... and Im too Embarrassed to Leave them On my diary. So I want to put it in my Poems book Which Reminds Me!.. I lost that fucker!.. Last time I saw my Poem Book was in Eric's Hands while he was reading it.. then the next thing I knew, Jordan told me to kiss him cause he looked depressed.. and I went up to im and asked him what was wrong.. he was depressed that I wouldnt tell him what this scar On my leg Was "cause I carved it into my leg.."..so I told him "I dont want to tell you because it doesnt seem true anymore.."..and he asked what it was..and it was "I am Unloved"..carved in with a safety Pin.. I was to Scratch it out..but that would upset Eric more than Just Leaving it there and not being in pain.. I missed Megans Birthday Party, She was looking forward me to go too...and I had to miss it because I had to help my brother jeremy Paint signs His Boyfriend "Tom" is running for President of University Of North Florida College, which is a BIG Thing.. so I helped jeremy. Since he is after all my favourite brother.. Im thinking of changing my diary Look again. Its getting old.. and too "prissy"... Im more of an Emo person anyway. I dont know what to write now..but I promise to write tomorrow.. so If I dont remember it now, I'll remember it then.. -Matti