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by malewitch0
Feeling: vulnerable
Mom finally got my perscription of Prozac.. Im afraid to take it, but promised my therapist I would.. He also asked if I would keep a Journal About my taking of the Prozac.. So I figured I will Leave a small comment, every day, about the prozac. I start tomorrow. Hopefully no reactions.. "falling asleep, Stiffness of the body, blurring of the eyes"... I hated those side effects.. they scared me.. This better not have one.. and if it does have one, it better have a Good One!.. Like.. Loss of weight.. =P I hurt my finger.. I hate the screen door. We are missing the Door Latch thing that you push to open the Screen door. so We have to Unlatch the thing with our finger..and I got pissed at mom, Hit the door (left a small dent.. didnt want to get killed).. and then Went to open it..and it pinched my finger, Yeah.. Im a whiner.. Jordan came back from MHRC today..and her mom talked to me.. Telling me I shouldnt be with someone who's just going to Use me.. I dont want to be alone though, and From what Kayla says, he's trying to stop liking Justin... I just wish Eric Loved me.... I didnt go to classes today, didnt want to, Just told mom I wanted to sleep, and it was her fault for making me stay up till midnight with her in the car. she finally just let me skip the day.. I read an exciting little thing on Darkstarlings about "Why Homosexuals shouldnt be allowed to marry"... I think its bullshit.. honestly.. and Plenty of reasons why.. but this is my diary.. Not an Online debate team. I want to cut again... Carve back in "I am Unloved".. because It is true.. If it wasnt.. then why is Eric in Love with someone else?... And I dont mean "Friendship Love".. I mean the Love where Your sitting on the floor crying, and Then he comes into the room, holds you tight, kissing you and comforting you. Making you believe its all Better- Love.. the love I'll never seem to get.. -Matti

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Prozac Thoughts: Afraid, Slightly. Not knowing what will happen to me. Perhaps a little Eager. All I know is. I Cant get things done. Perhaps Prozac will help me with that.
Read 4 comments
your not completely unloved. but i know how you feel...even tho we've never been in quite the same situation. you need to ask your mom about that trip. staying with them from friday to probly wednesday. all you need is about 60 dollars and i think we can all help you with that. i hope she lets you go, everything else is all set. love you lots.
sylvia
oh and about that cutting, it doenst sound like it's right, but i want to do it too, i think i might tonight actually, but as far as it's concerned with you, please just dont over do it, if you do anything. dont get carried away. i can't tell you not to do it because you wont listen to me on that one. just be careful. i would die if anything happened to you.
sylvia
oh and about that cutting, it doenst sound like it's right, but i want to do it too, i think i might tonight actually, but as far as it's concerned with you, please just dont over do it, if you do anything. dont get carried away. i can't tell you not to do it because you wont listen to me on that one. just be careful. i would die if anything happened to you.
sylvia
hey... im on prozac, too. it's helped me out so far but some shitty events that happen in life still get to me. thanks for commenting on my sit diary...maybe we can chat it up on aim? IM me at allivbaby