So.. This boy walked up to me today.. Walked up Really Close.. I Mean.. REALLY Close.. Boy:Are you a boy or a girl Me: a Guy Boy: I can tell *Rubs my chin* Then when walking away he goes "Nice Kilt Love the skirt" I Mostly feel he's sarcastic. Really Sarcastic, and he did it only to make his friends laugh.. But He was Cute.. Although I wouldnt allow a relationship.. I promised myself I wouldnt allow one.. ever.. I guess he only did it cause I was in a skirt..heh.. so... The First day was okay. a Girl Talked to me.. A Hippie.. which is cool,just..awkward.. Cause.. she doesnt shave.. yeah.. Dont even know her name.. Then.. This girl in fifth Period.. Started talking to me, and Just..wouldnt stop, so now Im forced to be her friend.. I guess.. She has ADD.. so yeah. She's Hyperactive.. too hyper. Then.. Lunch, Colin walked up to me, and He's the dude I talked to On Myspace. So I Met one of the Myspace persons I talked to.. the other one I think I see around the school, just.. Likes to Ignore me, and Not talk?..Apparently he doesnt like me. cause he'd Never Respond to my IM's.. I Officially made everyone Jealous in My classes Cause Im the only one living with Roomates.. Im the Only one who cant get a Job and Has Disability. and Im the Only One who basically doesnt give a shit.. Some people like my hair..their weird.. no one's complimented me to myself though. Figures. well..here at the house.. Sometimes I feel Like Im only for slavery.. Every five minutes jeremy reminds me I have somthing to do bout work The Laundry.. The Dishes Jerrids Bookshelf.. Heh.. I hate it.. Although I need to do em.. *sighs*.. Sometimes I just want to stab myself in the wrist when doing the dishes, and they're Just sitting there, talking up a storm and having fun.. with their friends. and Im alone in the next room over.. completely depressed.. jeremy seems to find all the humor bout me.. It hurts.. severely.. I mean I dont even let them know.. He thinks anything about me is the funniest thing alive. Like the Fact I Painted my room Pink.. when he saw it, He went and ran off to Tom and Told him to Get him to laugh too.. Then the fact that today. They saw this Eeyore I had gotten outside, and Rachel Had pointed it out. so Jeremy goes "Matti, where's your Bear?" and I told him I Forgot it In Interlachen.. and Rachel goes "Well we can get him a new one"..and jeremy goes "No... we cant.. The things Been to him since he was like one. and its the UGLIEST and OLDEST bear ever. He couldnt pick a decent one. no it had to be the Nastiest One"... okay.. Its stupid to get upset over a bear.. but when You've had a bear since nearly birth, when you pick it out yourself at a garage sale..and the old man who owned it gives it to you for free.. its the most important things to you.. ever. ------------------------------------ I Think Ive gotten Tom to open up to me a little.. He told me about how he has a MySpace. and How He Talks to other guys, and that Jeremy and no one else knows cause Jeremy's Possesive and he doesnt want to feel like an Object.. He told me this, NO ONE else apparently knows.. I felt a Little Important.. Just a Little.. But things still hurt god I feel Like crying.. -Matti