I just feel like dieing right here, I could care less about the world anymore. It Fucking sucks. The love of my life seems to be my worst enemy in progress. Of course we arent together anymore, but he had told me he wanted to be with me and he just needed time and he would call me today. And was suppose to come over to spend time with me and me only for a change. Turns out I have to call him and he is too busy laying out in the sun and waiting for his fucking girlfriend to show up so he can take her to the hospital to see if he Fucking Got Her Pregnant!.. I literally now cry because I want to stop crying...He puts me through so much fucking pain. Honestly... for someone who is supposivly to love me, he sure shows it very Fucking well.... The bad thing is I keep returning to him so he can damage me more. I dont want to leave him because he took my virginity, and I always wanted someone I loved forever to do that with.. apparently that wont happen since he is sleeping with a fucking twenty-two year old.. their damn relationship is illegal and he doesnt give a fuck... I just want to die.. Most likely I plan to cut my wrist's tonight.. Literally... because I am tired of pain, I am tired of being put down, and having the weakest of friends try to cheer me up and it seems to make me feel worse, I am tired that I am going crazy... I just want it to end and me be goneand no more pain for me to pressure with. He doesnt care for me.....no one does... even if they lie to me about it...