Well, I had a great Night last night, Hung out with blake, but thats All Im really allowed to say on that, he wishes it to be secret. Dunno why. He Just does. So Im putting it in a Private Entry. Right after this one. I tried sleeping last night, Couldnt, Just had my eyes closed and thought, I Think I have Insomnia really. Which would suck, but Im fine with it, I actually feel better when Drinking Caffeine, I'll remind my mom to get me some. Blakes birthday is Tomorrow.. I really want to say happy birthday, and wish I could get him somthing, but I cant.. Unfortunately. so I guess I'll try calling, If no one answers, I'll Leave him a message. I asked him Last night if we were Considered Officially together.. His answer. "no.. but I do care about you alot, Or I wouldnt be here right now, Instead i would of gone to the metro to hang out with all my friends, but I chose to be here with you".. It hurts to know we Arent together, but I guess If it doesnt happen, we have an Open Relationship?.. I know what Im going to say tomorrow, I just dont have the Ability. Oh Great.. I think Im getting Sick too, Would Figure as Much, blake told me to get out of the rain, but do I Listen?.. Nope... I have to go to the bathroom, but I wanna wait till I finish this entry. Oh Great News, You know that shit I put in my hair?.. beeswax?.. That nasty Greasy shit that you cant get out for days?..Apparently if you Blow dry your hair, Straighten it with a Straightening Iron, Sprits It with Milk, and comb through, it Makes your hair straight It works. Im glad I hate The greasy Feeling when I rub my forehead. Sylvia thinks Im mad at her, I dont know how that started, I was gone all yesterday so I couldnt IM her or anything really, I think its cause she Told Stevie Some stuff, I could care less, I dont really care now if Stevie Knows, I know Im being a Cold Heartless bitch, but.. He's got to understand somehow.. If He does know and complains, I'll apologize, Cause I Am Sorry.. But I just dont want him to Be like that everyday or somthing and try to make me feel so Guilty I cant talk to anyone. Anyway, I guess I ran out of things to say, So Im cutting this off, going to the bathroom, and writing My private Entry. -Matti