I actually went to school today, I got my make-up work. I dont have MUCH, but I do have to study for fucking tests.. dammit. The Ending of the nine weeks ALWAYS SUCKS. I finally got the book Rainbow Road, which is the newest version of the rainbow books. I'll Start It after I finish Neptunes Honor. today was okay, I tried my hardest not to hug people. I really am not in a hugging mood.. at all. me and dominic are talking again.. which is good, I really want to remain friends with him.. god I miss him so much.. I love him so much.. I keep asking myself why did I even break up with him.. Maybe I could of avoided him wanting a wife and kids.. if I just stayed with him.. but theres no determination.. Besides.. He's flirting with this kelly girl.. he wont tell me, but I know its true. Im fine with it.. It hurts a lil to know that he shows affection to her, but he never did with me. At least he still cares, he even took pictures of him wearing the shirt I made him.. and Put the Flower I sat hours making on his site.. but he wouldnt say "I LOVE YOU MATTI".. its always subliminal.. like he was ashamed of me.. I want someone who's not ashamed of me.. to tell everyone they're in love with me.. :(.. (change song- Kelly Clarkson-Hear Me) I really feel like crying.. but my stomache hurts so much.. I just cant. Ive been eating too much.. Im gonna not eat anything at all tomorrow.. and lay low on calory Intake. I want to be skinny.. really really skinny.. Beautiful.. Lexi took pictures of me after school, we were having a "photoshoot".. it was fun, much fun. Just running around, doing diffrent poses, and Not caring. I'll have them up eventually. I think she did a good job. I'll Update my story eventually.. I have to start a story for english two honors. They're expecting a rough draft by friday.. I also have my make-up work for that class due.. and I need to find my goddamn folders for my science and geometry class.. its pissing me off. They're at home somewhere. I know it.. god.. I want to be happy.. -Matti