yesterday I gave dominic his christmas present. You know, the drawing I did of him that took a whole night to do.. studying his face for hours. for him.. he loved it.. I can replay it perfectly. Dominic: Alright before I open my present, I drew somthing for you. Matti: You drew somthing for me? Dominic: yeah. but you cant open it till you leave the house, and the yard. Matti: The yard? But At least I'll be out of your house. Dominic: Just Dont! Okay. Matti:okay.. *Dominic opens his present slowly*. Matti: You dont have to do that, you'll have the gift, the wrapping paper means nothing. Dominic: I want to save it. Matti: okay. (after a half an hour of opening slowly) dominic: Omg.. thats so good... Thats Soo good. (dominic rises up and wraps Matti in his arms, kissing his cheek) Dominic: I Love it. Matti: I worked on it all night for you. Dominic: Its great. Ima hang it in the living room. it'll break in here. (keeps hugging matti, matti rests head on his shoulder.) (dominic remains looking at it in awe for a long time.) Dominic: Its so Good! Omg I Love it (Dominic Kisses matti on his lips lightly.) .... I miss him... so fucking much.. When I got in the truck. I started spazzing thinking I lost the drawing. and finally openned it. Three circles. Completely shaded. well done. and then at the top "Forever yours". I hoped there was still somthing to work with.. then I IMed him today.. NeverEndingMatti- ME YourBestRegret01- Dominic ------------------------- NeverEndingMatti (8:39:03 PM): did you mean it?.. YourBestRegret01 (8:39:11 PM): mean what? NeverEndingMatti (8:39:20 PM): The drawing you gave me YourBestRegret01 (8:39:27 PM): what about it? NeverEndingMatti (8:39:46 PM): What you wrote.. did you mean it. YourBestRegret01 (8:40:09 PM): Always yours? NeverEndingMatti (8:40:30 PM): yeah YourBestRegret01 (8:42:02 PM): its not so much as I will always belong to you just more so that a part of me will always be with you..I still love you thats never going to change NeverEndingMatti (8:42:55 PM): could you answer honestly.. do you actually have an interest for someone else right now?.. YourBestRegret01 (8:43:34 PM): yes I do and you know that NeverEndingMatti (8:43:46 PM): You deny it to me though NeverEndingMatti (8:43:48 PM): every time. YourBestRegret01 (8:43:55 PM): when did I deny anything? YourBestRegret01 (8:44:38 PM): I deny that I am with anyone not that I am interested in anyone NeverEndingMatti (8:44:41 PM): you never answered me about it. I ask about kelly.. and you get mad.. YourBestRegret01 (8:44:49 PM): I am single yes BUT I do like someone YourBestRegret01 (8:45:07 PM): I get mad becasue you say stupid stuff like I have sex with her when I dont NeverEndingMatti (8:45:22 PM): I was joking with you then. NeverEndingMatti (8:45:35 PM): On the internet I try to joke and you cant tell cause the internet has no feelings.. but you get mad.. YourBestRegret01 (8:46:35 PM): well yes I am interested in someone NeverEndingMatti (8:46:53 PM): okay.. YourBestRegret01 signed off at 8:47:19 PM. ... I started crying.. Im still wanting to.. but my moms behind me.. I want to be happy.. I fucking want to be happy..