Today.. At School Bethany wasnt here.. that kind of made me sad because she is mad at Chris... for somthing he didnt mean to hurt her feelings for.. and I know she will get better soon.. but it still doesnt help that she avoided it... and Today... I saw Chris Alot!.. I mean I Loved it (Underline "love" as many times as possible)...I saw him before school.. which was an awkward silence.. and then I met him up after first period.. we walked together.. (I was thinking about grabbing his hand,... but Im too shy)... I promise to do it tommmorow though... and then I went to second.... where the teacher didnt bug me.. and I could think about Chris.. and rest my eyes.. I liked that class because I couldnt get Chris out of my mind... Lunch.. was okay.. I hung out with one of my best friends, Jenny, and we got cheese sticks... I had one and she had the rest (not much of an apetite)... and then... I went to third.. thinking about skipping to go see Chris.. but.. Of course.. too afraid and scared to do so.... then.. Johnel asks to use my planner to go to the bathroom.. I asked if she was skipping or literally going to the bathroom... she replied bathroom.. and I was all "damn!.. I wanted you to go say hi to Chris for me"...and when she comes back.. she goes "matt! come out here!" I leave the room and Chris!.. I was all excited.. and I just left the class to go walk with him... to were I saw one if his friends.... he was soo cute trying to get her head off of the table...Then he goes "well?.. thats him" and points to me.. and she was all.. what?..and he goes "thats my boyfriend"..that made me extremely happy that he was glad to practically Show me off.... then he took her to her classroom... and walked me to mine.... My day was perfect just ending there.. but he left me a good bye after school... and Told me he would meet me at five on the internet... where I still talked to him alot more... Goddess!.. I love thinking about him... I didnt let Anything ruin my day!...I even made a friend Happy!!.. the only bad thing was.. I had to see my Psychiatrist after school.. so I was getting a ride from my mom afterwards.. and.. I go meet him.. and he said I had a Psychotic Illness!.. my mother knows for a fact I am Not Psychotic... I am just abnormal.. and Im glad to be non normal.. he is going to put me on drugs.. that I am NOT going to take.. because my mother said that their side effects are gaining weight.. IM NOT GETTING FAT!.. and drowsiness.. NO!... depression.. AlREADY GOT THAT!.. Im not takeing them,... no matter what.. he misdiagnosted me... he's such a dumb ass... But It didnt ruin my day.. because I dont loose money over this crack pot.. its on my Medicade!...so yeah.. the only person I do look forward to seeing in that business is Kevin.. because he listens to me.. and he is my therapist.. he just thinks I am unique.. and Im glad he can understand me.... ANYWHO! Im ending this now... Bye bye All!... Love you!... Love You Chris!