So I had to force myself to write another Entry. I dunno why Im so lazy.. Its been a long ass while and Ive had a lot of shit happen to me. Lemme Try to summerize it in order.. Ermm.. Well there was the car accident.. I was walking to school.. and Then a car hit me.. I had to go to the hospital for a dislocated shoulder. which sucked majorly.. cause Now Im frightened to walk across a street.. I always feel there's a car going to hit me, and my breath shortens and I just want to cry.. I dunno why, I Just.. Ugh.. I hate it badly. I avoid some people at school, Such as Josh. Because they always make me want to like them, and I did, but they are taken and it hurts me more to know Im flirting with someone I wont have a chance with ever. This New guy came to school at the End of the Semester, Named Dana.. I was really starting to like him too.. Asked Sarah to ask about him.. He told Lexi he was bi, but told sarah he was straight.. apparently he has a crush on this diffrent sarah.. That hurt.. I dont really want to pretend to be with blake anymore. cause Its gotten serious, and I want to be with him and all, but It took so much effort to accept me, and I dont even know if he does accept me the way I feel he does.. and he is just saying that so he has Somthing.. He was on the verge of breaking up with me a while back anyway, because I Keep forgetting to call people, and he got Upset.. so Im going to eventually end it, so I stop hurting.. or just wait until he does again.. I met a new guy though, he lives close to my old house.. And apparently he really likes me.. so yeah.. Im hoping he's Just not joking around with me. and its somthing real.. cause If it is, I'll really try to see him.. His names Dominic. Erm.. Lets see, I had gotten my report card, all A's.. Lately I havent been doing too well cause Like.. I keep forgetting to do things, Like Ive said, well I forget to do my work. Im also behind on my Dishes, and laundry. Which Im taking this weekend to work on.. I hope I finally catch the fuck up on it. Ima go for now -Matti