i was doin fine... i wasn't talking bout ihm... smiling being happy... i was jus trying not to think bout him dream bout him, or talk bout him... but then he had to go and ruin it all... i got yett another song... "Killing Me" I wonder where you are. Please don't come around tonight cause I can't stand to see you and I don't want to fight. Gimme one more drink and I swear I think I'll be ready to make the same mistakes again with you. I finally figured out that you're not coming back and I'm not going anywhere. You were the one with all the faith how did you let it slip away? That's right, I'm blaming this all on you and the little things you didn't do. We both knew that you were stronger, could have fought a little longer. You didn't hold it tight enough. You lost your grip and I slipped right through your fingers. No more sleepless nights alone. This bed is better without you. No more waitin' up for calls. I've got nothin' left to say to you. Tell me again about those better days. This silence hurts me more than anything you could say. Broken knuckles, broken heart. I fell in love then fell apart. You tried to run, I tried to hide, still we managed to collide. Fell so hard, matching scars. Held you close, felt so far. Hearts beating out of time. You're screaming with no reason and no rhyme. So I will save this last breath for words that I won't scream. I don't feel like dying, but you're killing me. Just when the wounds start healing you're there to break me open. Watch the blood spill. I'm getting used to this. I'll clean it in the morning. I wonder where you are. Please don't come around tonight cause I can't stand to see you and I don't want to fight. Gimme one more drink and I swear I think I'll be ready to make the same mistakes again without you. ^^^ yup thats to me, and it jus makes me feel super special :(... w/e, if thats wut he thinks then alrite... i kno he's all i talk about, i'm sry to all my friends who thinks it's annoying... but i really em trying hard, it jus hurts to think that i'm hurting him, becayse i still want to be his freind i really hope you read this... if you were able to go back, would you still go out with me, would you have even talke to me jus to begin with, was i jus a waste of your time, a waste of your heart, i kno i had a place in your heart, maybe i wasn't as great as tricia, but i still think i was kinda up there, but really, if you had a chance would you have worked it out, would we still be goin strong, would you have let things go its way?.... i think i was jus a waste or your time, i'm sry :(