wellll this is fucking cool god i don't even know... jus got in kinda a fight with dan, i wasn't yelling, i'm not sure if he was at me or not, it was online so i couldn't realy tell... except i said that i cared about him, and he said why do you care about me, i'm just another kid... well that got me going on how i'm just a girl to him, just some girl that means nothing to him, not a friend or anything, and he doesn't even give a hit about me... and then he got in how he tunred it into ajoke somehow, but something he said was joking, and i was crying, and he was laughing, and i was like so you think its funny that i cry now? and he's like asshole remeber, i was just like omfg just stop... you can be nice if you want to be, wich got us on to something different, and i've felt like shit today since like 7:00, ugh i just can't help it.... sometimes i hate it here so much, and i don't even know anymore... omg, i mean i love dan to death, but sometimes i just ca't take i... we haven't fought in a wicked long time and i don't want to start again now... ithurts fighting with the ppl i love, it hurts fighting with britt, my mom, dan, my dad, my other friends... it hurts so much and i hate it... alli want to do is curl up in my bed and jus lay there, and have sum1 help me.. but nobody can, i mean yes i'm hapy and all... i just hate fighting, so at this moment i'm not happy, i'll be better in the morning maybe... and god.. w.e. goodnight