well as it was earlier today, i was SO happy... happier then i had been in while, i didn't think anyhimng could ruin my mood, and just uh, i could not stop smiling, well i was talking to dan and he asked if he could come over... i was like YES!... so he's like alright i'll be there in a few minutes... i was listening to music when he walked in, he said he had been watching me in my big window for like 5 minutes, i was really embarassed, but i smiled... we laughed for a while and he saw that i was in a really good mood, and he hopes i would stay that way, i went to hug him but he said ew no you smell (cuz i didn't shower yet) he's like go take a shower... so i did cuz i didn't think my mom would be home for awhile, he sat out inmy living room messing with my comp, just seeing what was on it and shit... well i was done withmy shower and i had to pee... so as soon as i was done, my mom and john walked in, and dan got kicked out of my house... i was like what?! my mom was like stephanie he is not to be in here, i was like you never told me that! and she's like w.e. and walked away... so i looked around for my swetshirt couldn't find it, so i grabbed my coat and put on an old pair of shoes... went outside, and dan was cold, he wanted to go home, i gave him a quick hug, not even really a hug, just kind of a bye gesture thing... and i sat in my room and jus cried, i couldn't stop, that was the hardest and longest i've cried in awhile... then my phone rang... ihad a feeling it was for me, and john oopned my door and handed me the phone... i told her everything, she just wanted to talk, but she called at the perfect time... thanks britt well i felt better after talking to britt, and went out in my living room to watch some movies, while my family watched the grinch, so uh yea that was fun i guess... well my family got done watching that, so i tried to get on line and my internet wasn't working, so i went in my room and jus layed on my bed listening to yellowcard, i had tears in my eyes, and my mom walked in and sat on my bed, i just basicly skimmed over everything thats going on right now, and she was like uh ok... and everytime she asked why i was so sad, i had a single tear role down my cheek, and i'd turn my head... i hate crying especially in front of my mom, idk why, but i hate it, i feel so stupid... and uh yea, that was it pretty much.... so its been a long day, i'm gunna talk to dan and brittany for awhile, and then go to sleep, i'm so tired o yea, i'm decorating the tree tomorrow, hope i have fun with that... goodnight