all of april and all of may.. all i did was jus sit there.. waiting and waiting.. for *him*... well, as hard as it is for me to admit it.. i'm getting over him... so this is the new me.. the new me who doesn't jus sit there and cry.. i'm gunna actually go out and have fun wen he isn't there....... and to my 3 closest ppl thanx fer being there, and i kno u guys all have worse problems then me, but thanx fer always lettin me complain to u, and fer helpin me threw stuff i dun kno how to deal with... i love u all fer that : ) today started shitty... but its getting to be ok... i jus hope it stays that way... i started listinen to Christina Aguilara"s first CD... and i heard this song *So Emotional*.... *It's either black or white, that's right* We're makin love or in a fight* Sometimes you make me so blue, but then it feels so good, i knew it would* You kno the way to make me crazy* i want to give it to you *You make me feel so emotional* I can't let go i'm so emtional* I'm sinking fast into an ocean full of you* I'm so emotional *You take me highand low, you kno* I'm never sure wich way you're gunna go* You're such a mystery to me *But baby hot or cold, you got a hold* Of my imagination* I think you kno wut i mean *You make me feel so emtional* I can't let go i'm so emotional* I'm sinking fast into an ocean full of you* I'm so emtional *Rain is falling down on me* Suddenly the sun comes out* Sometimes north or south of love* But never out this is a long entry, i kno... i jus want to tell *him*... i will get over u.. wutever u want.. thanx fer the hug : )