uhhh lets see... last night was alright, ariel and her friend cara went to sleep wicked late... i stayed up with tim and josh till like fuckin 3:30... my dad went to slep like an hour b4 us... yea, nothing really special, jus chilled ith them all night, then went to my tent and slept there... i think i stepped on ariel alot getting in, hahah, oops this morning, jus started out normal, my hair a fucken mess, but normal anywayz... i got inside, got on line... ariel and cara were getting ready to go out there, i was jus chillin, and then cara needed the phone, i was trying to fuckin sign off, but my compis fucked up as hell, it was really pissing me off! w/e... then my dad came in, and he was like, steph! get down here, i was like ok, h/o... he's like hurry up!, i was like i'm siging off my com, and its acting stupid, here goesomg!, nvm!... i was like duh!, so i signed back on, then he came in a gain, did the same fuckin thing!... jus now, my grndma came in, she saw the outfit for the wake today... she jus kept talking tome, and i don't wanna fuckin talk tomy family right now, i can't tlk to any1! in my fam, when i'm pissed ff, i start yelling and shit... so she jus left... w/e now.. i don't wanna get off the fuckin comp to get ready, i really don't wanna go, but i knoi have to, and its gunna be fuckin gay!... all these ppl jus comin up to me saying there sorry, and watch my mom cry, while she holds john''s hand.... fuk... i lked it better when she fuckin cried alone... and i fuckin have tears in my eyes right now, i feel so fuckin pathetic... everything jus seemed to fuck up this week, maybe its me, i don't what the fuck it is, but i hate it...i hate john, and i hate my mom when she's around him, she acts so different, and i hate it... i hate how my grandpa died this week... i wish sooo much that i could tell him how much iloved him, i didn't talk to him since fuckin fathers day, and that was a, uh hi, love you, bye... and then i went to dans... i feel like sucha bitch for it... why the fuck couldn't have i said something really nice and ment it, why the fuck couldn't i have asked mom to have him over sometime, why the fuck didn't she see him and have him over, and make me stay... i feel so fuckin pathetic right now, all i'm doing is complaining, thats all i ever do, idk why my friends stick around, w/e...i hate crying, and i have to blowmy nose... soooo, write later i gess.... till fuckin later...