hey ppls, well i love josh. he is the greatest bestest bf i have ever had ever. we had this inschool basketball game today and we went and kady too and this other dude josh and when we were sittin there talking and stuff not payin attention to the ppl on both teams wearing the same thing. and he said is it normal to want to rape u. and i almost said u cant rape the willing but i said yea thats normal. when we first started goin out like the first day even i got scared bc of what had happend to me b4 but i kno that he wudnt do that to me. i think he loves me just as much as i love him. and we were goin to the buses and he asked jake if he thought we wud be together for a month and jake was like well i dunno...considering what u have dont with all ur other bfs im not sure about that. and that wud have worried me but it didnt bc i kno that we will make it for a long time. but i just dont kno what we will do when school ends. i guess i will have to go thru summer without seein him. god that will be horrible. bc i mean im not allowed to have bfs so of course my mom doesnt kno and im not allowed to have boys call me and im not allowed to call them and im certainly not allowed to go on dates so i dunno what to do about that. but i guess i will worry about it when it comes. there are still at least 50 days left. and this weekend is a 4 day weekend and i dunno what ima do. i think i will die . well i guess thats it ppl need to leave me comments!!