well, i do love him. and it hurts when i realize that im not the only girl in his life. sometimes i get so caught up in a guy.. that i forget there are other girls out there. then i get reminded and it hurts like nothing else. just forget anything i said in my last entry. just forget me, and anything i say. its not important. ive got to be less selfish. i dont know whats wrong with me. sometimes i dont feel like im good enough for anyone bc there are so many better people out there than me. no matter who knows and what happens, and who comes along, i will always love you eddie. whiether you know it or not.