well, i looked and she was already gone. my mom leave and i dont even notice...lovely. i think i'll just keep rambling about today. i have nothing else to do...and no one is on to talk to...except matt. but he isnt saying much. he usually doesnt. i want jesse. its not fair that my mom wont let me go anywhere. i went to heaven coulndt get in for what i had done, i said please take me, they siad your crazy, you had too much fun... lalalalalalalalalalalalala....la....lala....lalalalalalalallaal.....miguel looked very hot again today. too bad we're both not single anymore. i think we almost got together towards the beginning of the year...but it just didnt happen. his gf is really pretty though, really pretty. devin's gf is really pretty, too. doesnt really help me that much. everyone's gf is really pretty. except maybe my bf's........*rolls eyes in disgust of the truth** yes i am feeling very shitty at the moment. i was having a pretty good day...but now i feel all depressed and lonely. i think i already siad that...but it doenst matter. weezer rocks...so does their new song beverlly hills. it's awesomeness. i wish i could throw up. i feel sick. im tired. my back hurts. im bored. i want my boyfriend. i wish it wasnt almost may. i hate summer. i hope somehow i can see jesse and my friends this summer. it will suck eminsly if i have a summer like ....well...all the others before it. bugger fuckshitdamnfuck bloody hell grr argh sighs wokdvaoinvoinb aijg asdkfa mvkj vwaknbnb dknbdgn aoknaodvndobnaoigjaos ong aeokgmoknonboaskdmvjnbpasingoenhoainojnboiadn hey that was fun.. i think i'll do it again.. aosinoanvo agoanginaovinadobkadfgkn woohoo!! boy am i a fun bastard or what. im just breaking all the rules tonight. watch out you people,....yeah im pathetic...I KNOW! you, dont have, to say it. twice. hashpipe...woo... i ate way too much today. cursit. i think i'll just go to bed or something..i have to get up early in the morning...i need a shower.