wow, it's been about two weeks since i've been online. i missed it alot. especially talking to people...well school has been in for a week now. dont we love it. blah, its been all drama...especially with davy, it usually isnt with her. bryan has been coming to me for help, she's been playing games with his head..and mine if you want to get technical about it. woah..i just noticed i have no one on my friends list...somehow it disappeared...anyways.. i feel very very depressed today. i had this feeling that started in the middle of fifth that something was going to happen to me. it went away for a little bit, but then it came back and after school michael told me about something. that i guess i shouldnt repeat....but i already told miriah..so i guess it doesnt matter...unless of course who ever read my diary and told cathy about what happened last year still has access to it...um, i think i'll just leave it at he told me something. and well it was kind of wierd. i think i know what he's talking about...but then i dont. eh, i dont know. i thought tim wanted to go out with me...but he is now dating cory. i thought josh would want to go out with me...but he was dating stacey around the time i found out he was coming back. i thought jose wanted to go out with me...but that went away last year sometime i think...i dont know...i forgot. i thought jesse wanted to go out with me again...or would ask me again...but i havent even seen him that much and well, nothing has happened as i'm sure you can tell. and i'm just sitting here wondering why i'm not good enough for these people. what's wrong wiht me?? why cant i just date the people who would ask me out...why? why do i have to make things so complicated. i feel so confused. as usual. bleh. i'm trying to talk to people, put in this entry, and do my algebra homework all at once. yes...i'm multitalented. but hey guess what the school that i've waited so long to be here is here and i have a job and i have a car and i drive to school except my rules of the car have been dramatically reduced as to what i can do in it..and how often. but eh, that's expected. if my mom and dad had it their way i woulndt have any friends except maybe kady and davy, and all i would ever think about is school school school...the work that is..making straight a's and being perfect. but i do have my own mind..thank god. anyways, i dont know what else to say. nothing else has happened except with all of these asshole guys and stuff...davy and i have almost entirely decided to just date each other and get rid of them. but i cant do that...i told her she'd have to fight with miriah first...and well, i woulndt leave miriah because she's my lesbian girlfriend...and even though she claims to not be a lesbian..she's still...um...well i dont know what she is. but apparently we're lovers. lol. tomorrow i have to work...and i'm not looking forward to it..for some reason i'm rushing to get this done...seems i have something else to do..but i'm not sure what. its been so long since i typed anything..it feels so weird! wow...my sister has to fill me in on what i've missed in her life this week. i feel like i'm going to burst. but i'm not...i live to help people with theyre problems...that's my...um...passion ...hobby. whatever you want to call it. but when the same person comes to me day after day with the same...ish..problems and they wont listen to me and that's why they keep coming back..it gets me aggitated. i dont even like bryan!! why does he keep asking me for help..oh yeah ..bc davy's my best friend..that's what he says to me..you're her best friend..talk to her for me grr..davy needs to listen to me. or she will not be happy. ok i guess i'm done..now i have to work on getting my friend list back...what a bother...i'm sure i forgot something...eh..i'll put it later.