well i had the weirdest dream last night. i'm not going to put all of it here...one part, well, i dont think its a good idea to put it on a public diary....and the other part...was just a little bit weird and i'll leave that out as well..it's really long, too. i was walking onto this boarding ramp with davy, liz, and daryl. we were discussing this reason for war, the country was at war with someone and they had asked everyone and anyone to join. i cant remember what i said but i was something comparing this war with the ones we've had in the past. i saw jesse and devin so i walked faster to catch up with them. i tapped devin on the shoulder and waved and said hi...he was about to say hi to me but someone else said hi to him and he turned the other way...then jesse wispered something in his ear and then he gave me this really mean look. then they both started ignoring me....jesse told him to ignore me. so i just stopped. i stood there until devin turned around to look at me and i looked at him and then turned around. i was going to go back but i ran into katrina, mac, and someone else..i think it was mike...katrina's mike...and they made me turn around and go the other way with them. they were all excited to be joining in with this war...and apparently we were heading for a ship. i said that i wasnt going to do it, and then they kept syaing that i should, so i siad ok fine..and kept on walking. then instead of getting on the ship, we stood there for a while waiting. well i was hanging all over this chick and i was waiting for daryl to get there. i kept wondering where he was and why he had left me. apparently i said that i was cold becuase after a little while she asked me if i was warm yet..i said yes but i didnt let her go. then she got freaked out and pushed me off, and i fell into this hole in the boardwalk.and ran to kyle...kyle wright. yeah, i know, wierd. then he kind of looked at me like 'ok you scared her shitless are you happy now'. so i asked him to help me up and he did. then we got on a bus. i was in a seat by myself, davy and kelsey were in front of me. katrina and mike were somewhere..i cant remember but i know that they were there. then davy and kelsey were trying to make me feel better..i was upset about jesse i think..or daryl..one of them. the bus took us to some river place, and there were more ships i think. people were everywhere watching us all leave. i mean all over the place, like it was some celebration thing...and we got off the bus and instead of going with everyone else, i had changed my mind about going again so i got in my car...dont know how it was there..but i went to my house...and katrina and a few other people were there...not many...like we were the only ones left. i dont know where my mom was...or any adult for that matter...then, here is one part i leave out...bc it's about katrina doing something...that she might not want me to put here...so i wont. but i was a bit funny, well everyone else was laughing but i went back inside. and it was really cold out because we all had coats on and stuff. so i went in and took off my coat and got my cell phone and tried to call daryl to see where he was, but for some reason i didnt and drove to his house instead. i was going to stay the night, it was like half the world had left for this war thing it was like there were only a few of us left, it was quite weird. then i told him what jesse had done, and i was really sad about it, and ...i think i'll stop there. the rest is a bit...strange..i really dont know what word to use. i might put it here later. maybe. ok i changed my mind, well i was at daryl's house and well i felt really bad about what jesse did so we were on his bed and i asked him to hold me and he said that he'd never held anyone like this before so he might not be doing it right (eh..) and i siad that i'd never been held before so it didnt matter. so then after a few seconds i asked him what he really felt about me and he siad he loved me so i...it's just too weird. we went to the beach today. davy, jesseca epps, and melony someone...(never met her before) they drove in the tahoe, and my mom wanted to bring my dog so she took wendi and i rode with them...after waiting for almost half an hour at pizza hut for us to meet her...then we went to the mall thingy and mom got some shoes...i didnt, those places sucked. we went in this rug store because jesseca had to use the restroom so we pretended to be interested in buying one...and the lady came over and told us all about the sizes and their shipping....yeah. then we went to this restaurant with a pool. it had a pool...for their costumers...yeah well we were at the beach...but still it was weird. and they had a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich on the menu. how awesome is that. we all thought it was weird, but i decided to order it. i couldnt eat it though, my braces were adjusted yesterday and they really hurt when i try to eat anything. so yesterday all i had was a few bites of soup..the rest i gave to my dog...and today i had a few bites of my sandwhich and like...three french fries. so i havent eaten much...and it's not bothering me. eh, then we hung out at the beach and i went home with my mom..i drove us home and it was odd driving her truck now that i'm used to my small car. tomorrow i'm going to apply for some jobs in interlachen...joy...and saturday daryl and i are finally going to see charlie and the chocolate factory. better late then never. cheers.