well today i thought i that miguel was going out with that jemily chick. but apparently not. they sure seemed like it this morning though. holding hands, going behind the fence...eh. but then a few hours ago she was all over jose too.and mike said that he was single. so i guess that means they arent, i dont know. man i am starting to really not like her. she acts like a little whore. i agree with miriah... jesse didnt come. devin said that he might not come at all. mike said he might come tomorrow. just like last year...no goodbye. its so very depressing. he's still here. in bed with her. i had mrs mills sign my yearbook. she said...we had a "rough moment"...i found it funny. i did mostly nothing today except hang out with people in their classes...mrs mills of course, had to give us a quiz. i had a quiz on penises and vaginas today.woo. and i only missed one. i hope my grade goes up in her class. the rest of the day was doing nothing basically oh yeah, except that i got attacked by kati and katlyn with shaving cream all over me and then attacked again with the bottle of shaving cream all on my back by chris. it was cool. then i went to third lunch and put it all over paul's shirt. that was about it....except for one thing. which i'm not sure i should have done but it wasnt entirely my fault...i mean. we broke up didnt we...yes. we did. tuesday. to me that was our breakup. and yesterday im sure he got the picture when i wasnt being around him as much during sixth and i only hugged him when we got to my bus. but ...well. i sat on kyle's lap today at lunch...for a bit. then he came into mrs medley's class where we were all hanging out and we were...eh...close. then when the bell rang and we went out, i hugged him and he told me to wait and he put down his stuff and kissed me. ok so its partly my fault..i mean i could have stopped....i didnt have to make out with the guy...but well, i did. i told him that he had a chance next year. we'll just have to see. i dont feel bad about it. when jesse doenst come i try to forget we're even dating bc its depressing...him not being there not us dating...so yeah. whatever. im tired, and i wish tomorrow wouldnt end. it's going to be very sad. i cant believe it's here. this year sucked. i had one boyfriend which had its ups and downs...and i was depressed most of it. next year i am determined to have better days. it all depends on who is there...and who isnt...and who wants me...and who doenst. i suppose i should just get used to it. two months...but it still seems so far away.