damn took me forever to get on here. someone keeps calling and kicking me off and i keep having to reconnect and sign in again and again and blah.... ok what i really wanted to do yesterday and forgot was write down this dream i had. well ok i was at school, and i was going down the hall to the p.e. area and i saw amanda and she was walking with some other people and messing around and then jesse wasnt with her. so i keep walking and the jesse comes to me and i hug him and he kissed me and said " I think something good is about to start" and i was like omg you broke up with her. and then im not sure if the next part was my dream or if a fantasy of mine just got mixed with it and i wasnt fully awake or not but after that we went into the locker room instead of lunch and had nice, long awaited for sex. and it was great. then we went into the cafeteria as lunch was not over yet holding hands and being all happy and everybody must had known what we were doing bc they were all like wispering to each other...everyone at our table that is not the whole lunch room. but yea and of course i havent even seen him since last friday and he will probly be there tomorrow but i need to not care and find someone else to replace him and get my mind off of him. but neways yea today sucked and i was bored and tired and i really dont like schoolwork and most of my teachers and im confused about my feelings and its all wierd.