well she found the lizard, and all is well. if she hasnt of found it, we would have been arrested and our parents wudve had to come pick us up in jail. yea that serious, well we got two options, 5 days suspension, unable to make up the work,...or 16 hours, 2 saturdays 8 hours each, of community service at the humane society. so yea we picked the community service thing. our parents got called, they all know now, we're allowed back in class and things are cooling down. jesse is out of ac now, i thought it wud be a good thing but ive realized that neither zack or jesse like me now. neither one of them, which i can understand bc im not really that great. but yea. josh still does tho, i might as well just go out with him. so thats about what happened, i got grounded off the computer for a week...7 days... and so i cant really get on until wednesday but im doing some school work now so i have permission. yea it sucks and yes i think it was a little extreme, but it was "property" so it was an offense. i still think we had the right intentions, and i dont feel bad about doing it either. reucuring thoughts of suicide have come to me more in the past three days than they ever have. i dont know whats wrong with me but i am seriously depressed at the moment. ive been having some anger control issues as well. i really wud like to kill travis. he is absolutely annoying the bloody hell out of me. but...i almost got arrested once this week i think i shud just stay away from him. maybe ignore him all the time, mainly on the bus when he bothers me on the way home shit like that. so yea thats whats going on, i have to go now bc i have no life.