last night was really cool. well lets start with yesterday first.... ok i went to pick matt up, and then we went to the beach. it was mostly boring. except for a few times that we had some laughs....and umm...then we left a bit early than planned probably because this huge storm was coming and it was right where we had to drive home. so i drove home in this huge storm and it was so awesome. except my mom was a bit tipsy and wouldnt keep her mouth shut. and then she wanted to smoke in my car and i said no but she kept bitching that it was in her name or whatever and stuff and i got mad so i pulled off the road and then she started bitching at me for that. so i just got back on and kept on driving. trying my best to ignore her. matt was asleep. so we stopped to get some gas and she was fine. then we got home and she was like, im glad you stood firm on your car rules. so, yeah, she was almost drunk. i cant stand that woman sometimes. then when got showers and stuff, and mom went to palatka to watch fireworks but i wanted to go see them in interlachen because i know people there. and i knew that i'd see someone i knew. so matt and i went there instead. first i saw this girl cory. and we saw devin. and then i saw daryl! wooness! and i was all excited and stuff and the next thing i know devin, matt, and this other chick..i cant remember her name...had left us. so we went walking around trying to find them and when we did, well, we sort of lost them again. but kind of on purpose. and then i saw mike and louis, and jose. and daryl saw stephanie, then matt and jennifer. and so yeah, i saw alot of people i knew. i also saw max , who was with alyson, her sister....and uh..that guy she's dating. and ummmm....then i met daryl's mom and step dad....thing person...and his aunt i think. and then we got some gas, and i took daryl to my house. i wanted my mom to meet him but she was already in bed and didnt want to get dressed, so i said ok another time then. so i showed him my house, my extremely messy room, and then we went back to his house. it took FOREVER to get to his house. i didnt know he lived so far away. i mean i thought kady was far away in johnson...but he's even further. so then i was going to go in his house...but i really needed to get home because i didnt want mom to be mad at me for staying out so late. i'm not supposed to be driving after ten...and it was like....ten forty five. so yeah. i was in a bit of a hurry to get back home. so i said next time. so then while matt and i were getting back to my house i kept thinking of excuses to tell my mom in case she bitched me out for being back so late. like we stopped to get gas after we left my house he was dropped off, and couldnt get a ride home we kept getting behind slow people... stuff like that. so when we got back...she was asleep and i figured it would come in the morning. but dont you just hate it when you're so sure that your parents will do something....and then they end up doing the opposite. when i got up this morning, she was on the phone and getting ready to leave for work, and all she did was ask me if i saw some of my friends. so i told her who i saw...and stuff. and i told her that we didnt even really watch the fireworks, we just walked around the whole time and talked. then she left. so yeah. so now this week i have to find a job. i really do. i have no idea where...but i really need a job. i didnt see jesse. and it's been tearing away at me that i didnt tell devin to say something to him for me. i was going to...but he walked away after i hugged him and....i just never did. and i kicked myself so many times last night and it took me hours to fall asleep becuase i kept thinking of what i should have done. what's wrong with me. i dont know either. maybe nothing. who knows. bugger. i hate braces. "Tease you? You think I'm teasing you? To be honest I was being mean."