mmmmm cookie dough is yummy... today my sunburn didnt hurt as much as i thought it might. there was a considerable change within 24 hours. i had to stop a few people from giving me attack-like hugs...but they understood...at least some of them. everyone else (mike and mike...two different ppl dont get confused...) kept wanting to touch me...bastards, i knew there would be someone who did that. anyways.. this morning when i got to school a 'mob' had formed and we all went to the parking lot looking for the whore who seduced katrina's boyfriend...she wasnt there. so we went to the library...and well, she wasnt there either. so we left and then the bell rang and then we ..or at least i...went to class. thats about all i got out of it. but then i saw her at lunch and i wanted to punch her...but the deans...and the witnesses. such an inconvinience... jesse wasnt at school yesterday either...and wasnt there today. you know it really made me mad..i was thinking about it on the bus...and whenever he doesnt show up at school, it makes me feel like he doenst care. since school is the only place i get to see him...you would think he would make an effort. we might as well break up now instead of making these two weeks be even more depressing. bastard. i think i might tell him that tomorrow, i'll tell him off. it might upset him...but he wil probably fake most of it. like he would tell me if i did upset him..he never does. he doesnt tell me anything. and then complains that i dont tell him stuff....well, whatever. i dont care. ....no i do. i just, im getting tired of this situation. its not a good one. and im sick of being depressed! it just wont stop. fuck. fuckhole fucker mother fuckmesideways maybe i should look forward to summer vacation. at least then the only problem i'll be having is lonliness. now im having way too many problems...being lonely is starting to look good. like im not lonely now....but thats a different thing...somehow. sighs... uh, its usless. im sick of my sickness dont touch me you'll get this... im sick of me.