actually i only feel left. as in left behind. grrr and double grrr, jesse and devin skipped their class the other day bc mrs reeves is a biznatch and they got ac for two days. it would be fine except jesse wont be at school monday which means he has to serve the second day of his term on tuesday. and as we all know, that is the last day of school for next week! fuck and double fuck. i wont see him until next next monday. i wont even see him tomorrow. grr. oh im so damn full. i just ate like four cup fulls of cereal. and not the small cups, one of those soup cups. i love my cereal tho. it wudnt have been so bad if i hadnt of ate french fries not too long ago, and then some chocolates. omg im such a pig. no wonder im fat. i told my mom last night i needed to go on a diet and she lied to me saying i didnt. she has said before that i was "chunky". and that when she was my age she was like 105 pounds. im like 133. yes i do need a diet. i wish i cud not eat and lose weight that way. it wud be so easy. bc i dont really eat that much. but when i do eat its like alot at one time. well not really but sometimes i do splurge. haha thats a funny word...splurge. sounds like something differnt. i wish tomorrow wasnt friday. i hate weekends. ill be at home doing nothing again. of course i said that about last weekend and i ended up going to the movies. but i cant this time bc davy is in orlando for some no drugs type thing. we are such different ppl its hard to believe we're friends sometimes. but we are. hmm maybe melissa is not busy. or something. i dont know. maybe i could just do like i did that one weekend and spend my saturday on a sheet on the ground with a book and my cd player outside in my yard. that was ...well....not exciting...actually it was quite boring. ok i wont do that. wow i just talked my self out of something. awesome. ok well i think ive splurged in my thoughts quite enough. alright im done.