i think having a day off did some good. i dont feel half as angry...even though it still keeps coming and going... i really really really missed mike today. i wanted to be at school so bad. i woke up and started getting ready and my mom said...i dont want you to go to school today...i'm tired of having to take you back and forth...so i said fine and went back to bed. i have to ride the bus tomorrow... THE BUS THE FUCKING BUS i'm going to DIE i need to call miriah..she called today while i was at work..i was going to call her back but i wanted to take a shower..then i had to eat dinner...and i'm still eating now so...yeah...i'll do that. when i'm done. i think i'll just go jump on mike tomorrow and start complaining about how everything was wrong this weekend and today sucked and i love him and....stuff...i dont know if i should ride the bus in the morning or not...my mom said she'd take me to school...but i figured it might be easier to ride in the morning and let the driver see where i get off and stuff..since the bus driver i used to have...and liked...left. i dont think tomorrow could get here fast enough.