you will never believe what just happened to me. so i'll tell you. i went back home today, and i was in my room, and i heard my dog bark. so i looked out my window to see what it was, and i saw a little baby deer in our front yard trying to get out. we have a commercial fence around 75 percent of our property, so it couldnt find a way out and it kept running into the fence. i was trying to get the dog away but she wouldnt listen, and it kept running into and crying out, and i felt so bad. and then my stupid dog chased it in the pond and it tried to swim but she kept getting on top of it and it DROWNED. im still in a bit of shock and i feel very sick to my stomach right now. if only i could have gotten my stupid dog inside or something, im sure that deer could have found his way out. it ran into my leg, and i got blood on me. on a bit lighter note, we went to jax last night. shopping at hot topic. oh yay. the guy who i went with, thinks for some stupid reason, that you can only buy cool clothes in hot topic. and everything he has must come from that store. i dont like getting all my stuff from hot topic. i can find plenty of stuff a lot like it for a lot less in another store, that's even a lot closer to me. but i did buy some stuff, they didnt have much of a choice, i got two shirts and a skirt. er one of those, one-legged pants type things. then i went back to their house and emerald and i, his sister, went to sleep at about 2 in the morning. and then their dad woke me up this morning at 9 or something and said that my grandma was coming to get me in ten minutes. so i got up really fast and put my shoes on, i still had the clothes on from the night before, and waited for her. ah well, i'll come back and see them again. really, i will. i drove my car home today. my dad followed me down here because he gave us his dryer, so he had to carry that down here, it's not like i can fit a dryer in that tiny car. which is very ugly. but im not complain.... well ok i am a bit. well, you would too. its a 95 white nissan sentra. i hate that car. but its mine none the less, and now i have my own trasportation. i may have to check the oil everyday, and change it often, and i cant run the ac while it's sitting, it needs a new speaker and stereo system and the lining on the inside is falling down, but other than that, i suppose my only big disagreement with it is that the car is white. i absolutely hate white cars. maybe i'll get it painted. but i dont want to put a lot of money in it since i'm not going to have it forever, but who knows, i could have this car for the next five years of my life, maybe i should put money in it. start building up some credit. yeah, i think i'll do that, i'll save up some money once i get a job, and get it painted. black. or something. oh bugger and fuck. i think i'll keep this as a friends only diary, at least until it's out of my gma's computer memory. and i forgot to uninstall the messenger systems on there. as far as i know, if i sign on them with my computer, it would most likely sign on with her computer too. so i have to call her and tell her how to do it. so until she does, i wont get on any of them. but i'll call her very soon. today. oh, i cant believe it drowned.