you know...you're probably right...he might have made it up. things would probably be so different if he had been there. weird how things work out i guess. well that's understandable. even tho i dont really...it's cool tho private diary...i've thought about it too. but yeah...obviously i well never did it. well last night davy came over...wanted to dump bryan...long story short...she talked to him...he appologized to her dad...me and her listened in ....what fun..then she talked to him again...i dont think they actually broke up...but she is grounded for two weeks now bc apparently he came to her party....which...i didnt even know. my mom doesnt want me going to daryl's house. she doesnt want me to stay over there for more than ...like an hour. taking him home is fine...but staying...no she doesnt like that. of course she doesnt mine him coming over here....she's so ...odd. these braces give me an excuse not to eat. i can eat perfectly fine now...but i'm not. yesterday i didnt eat anything. the day before i had some eggs for breakfast....and day before that i had a few bites of some soup...the day before that nothing...i can see the bones sticking out in my hips now. and i think my wrists have gotten smaller. that's why i kinda dont wanna go to georgia...bc my grandmother will make me eat like she usually does and i'll have to start all over again...but school starts soon...then i can say i ate at school...and not eat when i get home. ...i sound anorexic...maybe i am. that's depressing. it's working though....in a scary sort of way... i need to finish my ded's...i keep putting it off. cheers.