damnshithellfuckargg. jesse and i just had a fight. wooo...what fun. not. he never comes to school. he left me for well...lets say four days bc it was...last week and then comes one day. now i know we are about to break up so i didnt get too upset about it because there isnt really a point....but then today...the same sort of situation came up and he got upset. he asked me at lunch to come to his class. well i said i wanted to play in shaving cream bc i thought..no big deal. well i was apparently wrong. but of course..like always, he wouldnt tell me that it upset him. because he never tells me! then in fifth...mike came to get me and i left daryl and brandon to go to mrs medley's class and we went to get jesse on the way but he didnt want to go. he was playing basketball so i figured he was having too much fun to go and i understood...no big deal...ha. well he came into class to walk with us when the bell rang and it seemed like things were fine but they werent. he wouldnt talk to micheal on the way...he didnt talk to me either. but mike said he was mad bc he had left jesse in 4th...well ok so he's mad at mike he'll be fine... no. he didnt say a word the whole period. he just sat there pouting, and i asked him what was wrong but he wouldnt tell me. so i tried to be a good girlfriend and comfort him but i guess i'm just not good at that in any area so of course it didnt work. then i thought...he must be mad at me. everytime he gets upset its my fault. its always something i did and he wont ever fucking tell me. but we were walking out to the buses and he told me and mike what was wrong. he said, there was no reason for him to come to school if we werent going to hang out with him...mike left him..i wouldnt come with him. so he was mad. then i got upset and wanted to kick him i sware. but i just kind of lagged behind them and then he stopped and we had a few words i dont remember what we said, and then jennifer comes up and wants him to sign her yearbook...and i looked upset apparently bc she asked me what was wrong and i just shrugged and she said 'yall about to split' ...oh thanks jennifer...you sure know how to make a situation delicate. so anyways, i think he shook his head yes and she said we should wait till the last day..but its only three days away so WHATS THE FREAKING POINT!!? thats right, there is no point. so i told him that. i said if he wanted to stay home, then stay home. there are only three days left there is no point in him coming if its so miserable. he doenst give a shit about school anyways. there is nothing there for him. so i guess we broke up im not sure. but if we didnt...we are tomorrow. i cried on the bus. i have never cried on the bus except for the time josh broke up with me. and that was a year ago. so i sat in the back seat and ...when most of the people got off..i started to cry. i tried not to bc i didnt want my mom to know. but luckily she is at the doctor's. travis asked me what was wrong and i didnt want to tell him but i did. so he was the first person i know really. great. this week has just been great. now i am going to go break something because that was my day and it SUCKED!