hey everyone, well i had my party. zach didnt come. dammit. neither did mike. it was kady, davy, matt, and jose. thats it. wow what fun huh. i guess it cud have been worse.... eddie doenst like me, zach doenst like me. no one likes me anymore except for guys that i dont want. maybe i cud go out with josh....not my old josh another one. i know confusing right. ah well. sighs....had a lot of candy today. now i feel fat. garshdarnit. oh well. i guess thats it of my depressing life. what does it mean to live...when living is only dying.