this new seether cd rocks hard man. you should check it out. it's called karma and effect, it rocks! anyways, my sister and her boyfriend are fighting again. they always fight. she says it's the way to make a relationship perfect, well i've never been in that situation. i've never stayed with a guy long enough to have that many fights. she's had like 7 or 8 so far. i dont know how long its been, a few months. i just wish they would break up and get it over with. i had a few little , uh, whatever you wanna call them, fights, or really small dissagreements, well not even that, just bumps in the road, with jesse. actually i think i've faught with all of my boyfriends, even after i dated them. yeah, i have. hmm...my sister thinks i'll never get married. i'll most likely be one of those women who constantly gets into relationships that just fall apart and then after a few months of sulking about it, meet another guy and start all over again, until i accidently end up pregnant. hmm...doesnt sound too good does it. it could be worse, i could get pregnant before i graduate. that would ruin my life. i've decided that if i ever got pregnant before i was ready to settle down and have kids, i'd get an abortion. i dont like them, that much, but i would. i can't let a baby ruin my life. even though it would have been partly my fault....it's not fair to have your life drastically changed because you were having fun. that dream was pretty confusing, yes. last night started all the dreams of going back to school. i'm sure there will be more. jesse has dreamed about me before, when he was dating amanda too. hehe. amanda probably doesnt like me too much. oh well, not my fault. it just stopped storming here, i'm bored now. but this cd rocks and that makes it better. i wish i could talk to daryl. i miss talking to him. mike is supposed to call me again when his phone gets turned back on. i guess it hasnt yet. oh and by the way, i still cant get into your diary, katrina. i dont know why, maybe it's just my retarted computer. peice of crap, i hate it. it gives me headaches. much like my mum. bugger, who i have to go to the doctor with tomorrow. joy. then she is making me go to work with her. see, it's a trick. she said two weeks ago she wanted me to go to the doctor with her, and didnt tell me until this afternoon that i had to work with her, too. she tricks me like that all the time. that's just her though. eh ok, im done here.