hey everyone, im glad this is still here. i had my computer fixed so if anyone cares im back. i made a terrible mistake yesterday. i didnt think it wud hurt anyone. and i didnt think anyone wud be so mad about it. but thats just the thing, i didnt think. i made a stupid desicion and almost ruined something good i had. which im pretty surei still have. this has to be the worst mistake i have ever made and it wudnt be so bad if it didnt hurt him. eddie i mean. that is the worst thing i cud ever do is hurt him. and i did and i feel so so bad about it. i havent smiled once today except for faking. and i havent thought about anything else but this thing and him. i dont know what i will do if josh comes back. this is going to be so hard when school starts wednesday.