jesse is very very sick. he's got something i dont know what but he went to the hospital this morning. he hasnt been at school all week i dont know why he didnt go to the hospital sooner, but i really hope he gets better soon. ive been having really bad days lately and today has to have been the worst. yesterday my mom was having a pre-pms episode and took it all out on me. i came home and she was in my room cleaning my windows, then i had to clean my room, and i mean clean not just straighten like usual. so i was all messed up yesterday because jesse hasnt been here i havent seen him in a week and i think ive gotten so depressed that ive either gone crazy, or ive gotten so depressed that its caused an opposite effect and im happy, something. i have no idea what's going on with me anymore. everyday is a new experience. eh everything is just so screwed up, and i wont have a good day until i know that jesse is ok. i dont even know if he likes me and im acting like he's my boyfriend. hmmph. im crazy.