grr...i went to get out my poem notebook, and i realized it was at miriah's house. i want it...i'm bored...when i get bored i read them...and...grr..i cant. i had a weird dream last night, i was with..miriah i think..and we were with someone's parents...not mine or hers so i have no idea...and we went to this shopping grocery place thingy and when we parked i there were some tables in the middle of the lot and i saw rikki, mac, ...and...wait...there were more people but rikki and mac are the only ones that i can remember...bc when i got out i said hey..look...it's rikki and mac..i wonder what they're doing here. so we went over and talked to them and everyone was smoking...i dont know why......maybe it's becuase i started smoking agian...meh...yeah well...yeah, anyways, so that was about it i dont remember the rest... yeah i know, that was pretty much pointless. mike siad he might go to miami for christmas...that means i wont get to see him. of course..i'll be gone for half of that vacation being in georgia...but still..he could stay the whole two weeks. oi...there it went...now i'm attatched..i'm completely dependent on him being around me. oh well, i dont think he'd ever leave..unless he had to...i wonder if he had fun last night...him and rick..and whoever else went with them..went to breakers last night. maybe they got kicked out. heh.. i wont be able to smoke for a while...my mom is my only means of trasportation now...or no..i should say i am her only means...bc its...my car...she's using. i think she should go by a new one...her truck is getting old and she's already put a lot of money into it..it will only keep giving her problems...and i dont want her having to use my car ...ever agian. sunday's are always so slow...but its sort of ok because i need the rest...im so tired. but i want tomorrow to come. like..now...so i can see mike. you know, there's alot about him that i dont know. i dont even know when his birthday is...or his favorite color...or his favorite food..or anything small like that. oh well, i'm sure i have plenty of time to find out. i'm going to...go...eat...grr... cheers